tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-257190982024-03-19T11:10:18.411+08:00笑.說.想今天只做三件事KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-30709354361328449432020-08-23T22:30:00.000+08:002020-08-23T22:30:23.968+08:00How far can a clause go<p><i>Extract from A History of the World in 100 Objects by Neil MacGregor</i></p><p><br /></p><p><b>Suffragette-defaced Penny</b></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguFl2FE1oMT0Gc_oNgFsuAG_q7n7Wnnk-rGDO52GE3N3drl5-GqvGg116YHC72cKhP6CgaYWk_o2vj86XrPo_v3NlJ7jUKY8xlialFpPmawJsahERAjryLNplgZyo6Y0u4dkpwFQ/s479/WhatsApp+Image+2020-08-23+at+22.14.01+%25281%2529.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="421" data-original-width="479" height="337" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguFl2FE1oMT0Gc_oNgFsuAG_q7n7Wnnk-rGDO52GE3N3drl5-GqvGg116YHC72cKhP6CgaYWk_o2vj86XrPo_v3NlJ7jUKY8xlialFpPmawJsahERAjryLNplgZyo6Y0u4dkpwFQ/w383-h337/WhatsApp+Image+2020-08-23+at+22.14.01+%25281%2529.jpeg" width="383" /></a></div><p></p><p>Edward VII penny, from England, AD 1903–1918</p><p> </p><p style="text-align: justify;">Our history has now reached the beginning of the twentieth century. Previously, we have been largely in a world of things that were made, commissioned, or owned by men. This object has on it the image of a king, but this particular example has been appropriated by women – disfigured by a slogan as an act of female protest against the laws of the state. It is a British penny with King Edward VII in elegant profile, but his image has been defaced in what was then a criminal act. Stamped all over the king’s head in crude capitals are the words VOTES FOR WOMEN. This suffragette coin stands for all those who fought for the right to vote. Recent objects have been about nineteenth-century mass production and mass consumption – this one is about the rise of mass political engagement.</p><p style="text-align: justify;">Power is usually not willingly given, but forcefully taken; and in both Europe and America the nineteenth century was punctuated by political protest, with periodic revolutions on the continent, the Civil War in America and, in Britain, a steady struggle to widen the suffrage.</p><p style="text-align: justify;">The process of redefining the British political nation was a slow one. It began in the 1820s, and by the 1880s roughly 60 per cent of the male population had the right to vote – but no women. The campaign for women’s suffrage had begun shortly after the Great Reform Act of 1832, but the battle only really got going at the start of the twentieth century, when the suffragette movement was born and with it a new level of female assertiveness, indeed violence. Here are the words of Dame Ethel Smyth, who composed the song ‘March of the Women’, which was a battle hymn of the suffragettes:</p><p style="text-align: justify;"></p><blockquote><p style="text-align: justify;"><i>At exactly 5.30 one memorable evening in 1912 relays of women produced hammers from their muffs and handbags and proceeded methodically to smash shop windows in all the big London thoroughfares inspired by the knowledge that exactly at that moment Mrs Pankhurst was opening the ball with a stone aimed at a window of 10 Downing Street.</i></p><p style="text-align: justify;"></p></blockquote><p style="text-align: justify;">Smyth was jailed, along with many other women. One day a prison visitor found her leaning out of a window, using her toothbrush to conduct her co-suffragettes in singing the song during their exercises.</p><p style="text-align: justify;">The British establishment was stunned by the vision of highly respectable women deliberately committing criminal acts. It was a big step beyond the posters, pamphlets, rallies and songs that had so far been the norm. Defacing a coin of the realm is a more subtle crime – one with no evident victims – but perhaps a more effective attack on the authority of a state that excluded women from political life. As a campaigning strategy it was a stroke of genius. The artist Felicity Powell has a special interest in subversive medals:</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><i></i></p><blockquote><p style="text-align: justify;"><i>The idea is incredibly clever, because it uses the potential that coinage has, a bit like the internet today, to be widely circulated. Pennies probably were the most used coin, and so to be able to get the message out, subversively, into the public realm, to those who would be consoled by it as well as those who would be shocked by it, is a brilliant idea.</i></p><p style="text-align: justify;"><i>This particular coin makes full use of the fact that coins have two sides, not visible at once, and on the other side there’s an image of Britannia, which hasn’t been defaced. An image of a woman standing there, very strongly, symbolizing nationhood. There’s a real potential for shock value, real subversion, when you see what’s on the other side.</i></p></blockquote><p style="text-align: justify;"><i></i></p><p style="text-align: justify;">On the other side is the profile of Edward VII – balding, bearded and gazing off to the right. He’s in his early sixties – this coin is dated 1903. Surrounding him, running round the edge of the coin, is the Latin inscription which translates as Edward VII by the grace of God, King of all Britain, Defender of the Faith, Emperor of India. A mighty title, redolent of both ancient rights and new imperial power – an entire political order devised over centuries and sanctioned by God. But running across the top of the king’s ear and right over his face in wobbly capital letters is the word VOTES, below his ear, FOR, and through his neck, WOMEN. A campaigner hammered the letters into the surface of the penny one by one, using a separate punch for each letter. It would have taken considerable force, and the result is powerfully crude, as Felicity Powell describes:</p><p style="text-align: justify;"></p><blockquote><i>It literally is defacement, right across the king. And what’s interesting to me is the way that the ear becomes very central. As these letters are hammered home, the ear is left more or less intact, and it’s a bit like, ‘Are you listening?’ It’s got that real force to it.</i></blockquote><p></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Our Edward VII bronze penny was struck in the year of the formation of the Women’s Social and Political Union (the WSPU), whose founders included Emmeline Pankhurst and her daughter Christabel. There had been other peaceful female pressure groups before then, but none had achieved their goal. Thirty-three years before, Emmeline’s husband had drafted the first Women’s Suffrage Bill for Parliament, which was doing well in the House of Commons until the prime minister, William Gladstone, spoke out against it:</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><i></i></p><blockquote><i>I have no fear lest the woman should encroach upon the power of the man. The fear I have is, lest we should invite her unwittingly to trespass against the delicacy, the purity, the refinement, the elevation of her own nature, which are the present sources of its power.</i></blockquote><p></p><p style="text-align: justify;">By invoking the delicacy and refinement of women, Gladstone made a calculated appeal to traditional, repressive ideas of how a lady should behave. So although the campaign for women’s votes continued and the Bill was repeatedly brought back to Parliament, for nearly a generation most women held back from direct action and unladylike encroachment on the established power of men.</p><p style="text-align: justify;">But by 1903, the Pankhursts and others had had enough. (At this point they were still calling themselves suffragists, but after a few years of activism the Daily Mail would dub these new, feisty protesters ‘suffragettes’ – a derisory, diminutive term to distinguish them from women who stuck to peaceful means.) Under Mrs Pankhurst’s leadership the suffragettes swung into direct action. Defacing coins was just one tactic among many, but the choice of the penny was particularly ingenious: pre-decimal bronze pennies, about the same diameter as the modern £2 coin, were big enough to carry easily legible lettering, but too numerous and too low in value to make it practical for the banks to recall them, so the message on the coin was guaranteed to circulate widely and indefinitely. The suffragettes also embraced the cause in person: they disrupted trials in court by calling for votes, as Emmeline Pankhurst herself did:</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><i></i></p><blockquote><i>The reasons why women should have the vote are obvious to every fair-minded person. The British constitution provides that taxation and representation shall go together, therefore women taxpayers are entitled to vote.</i></blockquote><p></p><p style="text-align: justify;">The moderation in Mrs Pankhurst’s words belies the escalating violence of the movement. Famously, the Rokeby Venus, a painting by Velázquez in the National Gallery, was slashed by Mary Richardson, who vigorously justified her action:</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><i></i></p><blockquote><i>I have tried to destroy the picture of the most beautiful woman in mythological history as a protest against the government for destroying Mrs Pankhurst, who is the most beautiful character in modern history.</i></blockquote><p></p><div><div style="text-align: justify;">Suffragettes embraced many other tactics that can still shock us now: they chained themselves to the railings of 10 Downing Street; letter bombs were placed in postboxes; when put in jail they went on hunger strike. The most violent, self-inflicted action came when Emily Davison was killed as she threw herself in front of the king’s horse at the 1913 Derby. The suffragettes became systematic lawbreakers in order to change the law, and defacing the penny was just one element in a campaign that went far beyond civil disobedience. How permissible is this kind of violence? The human rights lawyer and reformer Baroness Helena Kennedy considers the acceptable limits:</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i><blockquote>Defacing coinage is against the law, so there is that issue of whether it’s ethical to break the law in certain circumstances. My argument would be that there are some times when in pursuit of human rights it is the only thing that people can do. As a lawyer I’m not supposed to say that, but I think there are occasions when the general public would agree, that somehow one has to stand up to be counted. Obviously there have to be limits of what we consider to be acceptable in terms of civil disobedience. There are some political acts which one would never condone, and grappling with the ethics of where it is appropriate and what is appropriate is difficult. The courage of these women was extraordinary, in that they were prepared to sacrifice their lives. Now of course today we have people who are also prepared to sacrifice their lives and one has to consider when and where that is appropriate. And I think most of us would say anything that involved harm to others has to be unacceptable.</blockquote></i></div><div style="text-align: justify;">The suffragette campaign was interrupted by the outbreak of the First World War, but the war itself provided powerful, indeed conclusive, arguments for giving women the vote. Suddenly women had the chance to prove their ability in traditionally male and distinctly ‘unladylike’ environments – battlefield medicine, munitions, agriculture and industry – and once the war was over they could not be slotted back into a stereotype of delicate refinement.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">In 1918 British women over the age of 30 were given the right to vote, and in 1928 the Equal Franchise Act extended the vote to all women over the age of 21, on the same terms as men. And 100 years after our penny was stamped with VOTES FOR WOMEN, a new 50p piece was issued to mark the centenary of the Women’s Social and Political Union. On the front, the queen, a woman, and on the back a woman – a suffragette chained to a railing with a billboard next to her carrying the words, legitimately on the coin this time, GIVE WOMEN THE VOTE.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIdGpqnX0_yySdHd5pgWW73fMyhrhzbRZVHgPdyQigZdOkdiiFRLxceJg0JyGvBcyttlLLSLgT-535iYAK5NkCV33Hql2xDUv5iGhUNoa-0fSQTEa-yrSPf_MwlNYziogdHr97wg/s354/WhatsApp+Image+2020-08-23+at+22.14.01.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="271" data-original-width="354" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIdGpqnX0_yySdHd5pgWW73fMyhrhzbRZVHgPdyQigZdOkdiiFRLxceJg0JyGvBcyttlLLSLgT-535iYAK5NkCV33Hql2xDUv5iGhUNoa-0fSQTEa-yrSPf_MwlNYziogdHr97wg/s0/WhatsApp+Image+2020-08-23+at+22.14.01.jpeg" /></a></div><div><br /></div><div>A new 50p piece was issued in 2003 to mark the centenary of the WSPO</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>[Next: Breasts and Eggs by Mieko Kawakami] </div></div>KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-70851836627635659182017-08-27T00:16:00.001+08:002017-08-27T00:16:41.624+08:00徘徊在似即若離之間<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9akhbJsmjzsmX0AqRarK0Y9cfBq6D6fJfIDRANihDWlwMyIx0B3sa6M8uz8_fgRVehYcAnHeHObjef_ke70hk7Mws83e98EEU3T7tlPNx7pmB7bwNIHr5TAIwmxYC4XQsLNOrfA/s1600/170709_014b.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1200" data-original-width="1600" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9akhbJsmjzsmX0AqRarK0Y9cfBq6D6fJfIDRANihDWlwMyIx0B3sa6M8uz8_fgRVehYcAnHeHObjef_ke70hk7Mws83e98EEU3T7tlPNx7pmB7bwNIHr5TAIwmxYC4XQsLNOrfA/s640/170709_014b.jpg" width="640" /></a></div>
<br />
<br />
流蕩徘徊。<br />
<br />
多年前你大聲問著年輕的我,你說,妳不要站在邊界,妳究竟要進場或是退場,這問題今日又再次干擾我這顆已然逐漸老去的心。<br />
<br />
站在邊界。我的生命課題。既不想孤單,也不想進入人群,這究竟是如何的邊界之邊界,我不得而知。<br />
<br />
我只知道我一直都和邊界有緣。或該說我一直都選擇邊界,就像我喜歡窩在許多空間的最後一排與最邊的角落,我喜歡看見眾人,多過於被眾人看見,這也是一種邊緣觀照。<br />
<br />
<div dir="ltr" style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; white-space: pre-wrap;"><i>鍾文音 《中途情書》</i></span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; white-space: pre-wrap;"><i><br /></i></span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; white-space: pre-wrap;"><i>also on <a href="http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/" target="_blank">http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/</a></i></span></div>
KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-79085485700988094562017-08-08T23:48:00.001+08:002017-08-08T23:48:16.071+08:00一則虛構的對話<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">一則虛構的對話</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">鍾文音 《憂傷向誰傾訴》</span></div>
<b id="docs-internal-guid-556f9ec9-c289-3a66-a4f2-11ebd545abf3" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:說說妳的愛情看法?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我覺得人世間也是一種相欠債...... 差不多也是...... 人的愛其實很難平衡,因為平衡是一種激情,多一點少一點都不行。刺激的平衡點是最難的,我們通常以為平衡很庸俗,因為我們都很喜歡狂烈激情,其實那是最容易的,我後來發現:你就做到極端,但極端帶著任性,反而平衡很難,因為你差一絲一毫就不平衡了,所差的那一點可能就是「致命關鍵」,所有的生活啊、愛情、親情最難的都是平衡,還有包含我們日常生活的一切。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳說極端的平衡是最難的? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:不是任性的那種極端,任性的極端容易,但極端的平衡很難...... 比如你縱慾,苦行。一般人容易偏頗、傾斜,這是人比較容易生活的樣貌,或者情緒傾斜,但平衡很難。我年輕的時候覺得平衡很庸俗,何必過平衡的生活,就是要傾斜,就這樣一路慣性傾斜。直到現在慢慢才扶正起來,不然一不小心情緒過不去就變成了普拉斯...... 平衡最難,像走鋼索。但人生因為很難平衡,所以就會有一邊虛一邊多,就會形成虧欠或罪惡的這樣感受。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳寫作裡有自己的故事嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:自己的故事...... 有,多少都有,像是馬賽克拼圖裡多少都會有幾塊磁磚是屬於自己的原型。作者多少都會投射,因為虛構也是基於現實的經驗基礎,所以通常都會有自己的影子,否則至少也會有自己的所思所見,所聞所觀察。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:我記得妳寫過虧欠的愛情裡,妳說愛過的才算數...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:愛情是雙面的,愛過才算數 ,不愛的都不在這棵生命樹裡......</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:當中也有不愛的人虧欠過妳嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:你是說不愛我,還是我不愛他?</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:哈哈! (你的牙齒真好看)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:(回了神) 我的意思是說既然不愛了那就沒有意思了...... 不算數了,因為就不愛了。可是如果還有愛,但卻沒辦法履行對他的愛,心中就會形成愛的虧欠。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:(你盯著我的瞳孔深潭裡望去)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我的意思是說:因為愛才有所謂的虧欠感,比方說對家人也好,常常也有一種虧欠感是因為還愛著,但是沒有時間陪伴。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:(你摸著我的髮絲)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:那是一種虧欠感。那如果是你,可是你不愛他就沒有這種想要陪伴卻又無能陪伴的虧欠感</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">,不會有沒有時間履行或實踐的問題。所以其實虧欠的意思是說:沒有辦法去實踐,你心中愛他,但生活卻不得不被迫兩地相思,或者被一種東西隔絶以至造成你心中有愛,但實際的生活裡他不在你的身邊了。比方像是我們這樣兩地相思...... 你對我會不會有虧欠感?</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:(你摸著心,笑著不語。)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:如果彼此都轉身了,這個虧欠就不形成了。我的意思就是這樣子,虧欠是兩方還綁在一起。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:(你聽著,像是在聽物理或數學題目,關於平衡與誰欠誰。)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:所以這個虧欠的前提是因為你愛他,才會有虧欠感。不愛就分道揚鑣,你走山路他走水路了。以我們做例子的話,就是如果我不愛你,你就不存在了;你若不愛我,我也不存在你的世界了。所以我說的這個基礎是站在自己的這一邊去感受的,不是以對方的觀點。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:所以妳對愛還有遺憾?妳以前提過一個過世的異性朋友,妳對他有遺憾?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:倒不單是為他,人生的遺憾太多,虧欠不是一種遺憾,虧欠是說:我們常常不太珍惜現在,以至形成往後回憶起來,有種虧欠,但又不是遺憾,是真的有欠他之感,很想回報他,但他已經不在了。有的不在是離開了,有的是失聯,有的是過世,以種種方式消失在我可抵達的世界。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:那為什麼會覺得對過世的那個人有虧欠感?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:可能真的感覺到他的好,但他已經遠在天邊。當時不覺得愛他,他走了才覺得愛他,想起他單方面對我的好。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:這段可以談嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我不想談,該保留給寫作。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:想他?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:偶爾想,想念很奇怪,是一種對境才會升起的召喚。比如說突然聽到和他一起聽過的歌,一起去過的地方,他使用的語言,某個人和他很像等等,這時心才會被勾招起思念的感覺,感覺來來去去,說來也是幻滅。現在反而覺得我可以和他走到超越情人的關係。因為他離開了,我才覺得我可以愛他,這種愛比較是放心之愛,因為沒有失望,沒有所求。但他在世時,我並不是沒有愛他,我只是以另一種方式愛他,但沒說出囗,怕他失望,怕他有所期待,因為我愛的方式不是一般認定的情人的一種愛。我對他的那種愛,如果放到他身上,那就可以點燃一座屬於他的愛之森林了。我覺得我當時對他很吝嗇,給他太少的關愛,這就是虧欠之感...... </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:離開者忽然時間靜止,因此一切都擱淺在美好的懷念裡。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:嗯,死亡帶走了一切壞的感覺,因為我們是倖存者,所以會懷念別人的好,不好的都不會再思起了。我父親過世的最初一年,我每天晚上都會從母親的房間裡聽見她啜泣的聲音,有時還會嗚咽地哭著,那聲音很傷心。但我分明記得從我小時候母親就不斷地咒罵父親,喝酒喝死最好啦,不然就是吵嘴,嘮叨著他。但父親走了,母親忽然把他的不好全忘了,完全陷落在頓然失去他的傷慟裡,因為虧欠吧,如果她要是知道他不會活那麼久,那麼一定對他會寬容甚多,但我們總以為對方會活很久,久到我們得傷腦筋何時可以拋掉他。然後忽然才發現,生命脆弱,來不及珍惜彼此還在的時光。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:我珍惜妳在我身旁的每一刻。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:因為你知道我們明天要分離。分離和死亡差不多,讓人只見此時此刻此地此人......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:如果父親沒死呢?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:哈,這種如果是沒有意義的。如果沒死,那麼我們就依然活在對他的壞想像裡,很容易看見負面的,比如我父親如果還在世,母親一定繼續罵他,而他也繼續喝酒抽菸賭博等習慣。人生長河裡,很多感情的對象至今也是下落不明,分明曾經如此深刻地以身體與靈魂交疊過,但離開好像就徹底離開,不再聯絡了。有點生死兩茫茫之感,這些都不是年輕時可以體會的。像雷納德那樣的老公,吳爾芙真是三生有幸。而普拉斯是不知道她遇到太陽之神,她太靠近他,反而被燃燒而化成灰燼。如果能跟泰德•休斯這樣的巨神有愛情,但又能有點距離,那麼就可以全然地進入彼此的創作世界了,但可惜我們都要有點年紀了才能體會出愛情底層的真正況味。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:說的好。(對於我,你也是需要保持距離的情人。)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:如此實在每天的生活裡,很多的愛情是再也觸摸不到了,類似這種感覺,有點奇特。發生過卻等於沒發生過,存在又不存在,只剩下回憶,但漸漸地回憶也變淡了。回憶是不值錢的東西,但作家一生都陷在回憶的凹巢方裡面,一方面知道不能回頭看,一看成鹽柱,一方面卻又奔馳往前,毫不留情將創作的列車往前去。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:(我看著你,你的藍眼珠裡彷彿有一座海洋。)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:人間失聯,不一定是過世的,也有的是不知去向,怎麼樣也聯絡不上了,試圖用臉書用谷歌用雅虎,用各種搜尋引擎竟沒有找到任何關於戀人的一丁點消息,能躲開搜尋在這時代很厲害。我曾經因為谷歌搜尋,而找到昔日好友竟然死於一場瓦斯中毒,冬日裡,她和母親住的公寓緊閉窗戶,被發現時已經呈現玫瑰屍斑。這是從網路得知的死亡訊息,搜尋到這消息時非常震撼。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:確定不是同名同姓?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:因為她的姓非常少,且年紀與經歷都和我的同學一模一樣,連母親名字也一樣。所以我斷定是了。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:但如果妳不查,妳會一直以為她活著,反正也不會見面聯絡,就當作她還活著,這有差別嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:其實說來也沒差,確實也不太有機會再見面,就是安排見面,往後也又遁入茫茫人海。還不如就讓她仍活在記憶裡。就像有個朋友學佛多年,有一天考驗來了,她的母親忽然過世,她往日所學的完全被擊潰,陷入憂鬱症兩三年,和吳爾芙喪母之痛的憂鬱狀態差不多。但有一天她轉念一想,母親在世時常居新竹,而她住台北,一年有時還見不到一次,生活裡也很少想起母親。但她過世,忽然就悲不可抑。其實母親一直活在她的心裡,死亡帶走的只是肉體,這樣一想,她才逐漸從憂鬱的谷底攀爬上來。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:(我看見你眼裡的這座海洋,激起著點點漣漪,像是告訴著我希望我們往後可以不要失聯。) </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:情人曾如此真切地存在過自己的生命裏,可是忽然就再也看不見對方了,好像冥河之路一樣,沒辦法跨越那條人間的春河...... 火照之路已然黯淡,春色已然渡過冥河。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:(你摸著我光滑的臂膀,像是在摸著寫字的鵝毛筆,寫字者的手很溫情,帶著知識的力量。)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:發現有些人是離去了我才開始思念他...... 走到時光的布幕之後,才看見他的存在。夏娃與亞當被趕出伊甸園,踏上流浪的旅途,我常有這種人世流浪的雲遊之感。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳若轉身了,我會想念起妳,島嶼的妳,我從未去過的亞洲成為我感情的懸念地誌。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我其實常在提醒自己說:能不能在感情尚在的時候我們都能感受到愛的存在,我覺得這有點難度,因為我們每天都被日常的重複性疲倦了很多感覺,渾渾噩噩地忙著,有時候基本上每一天的泰半時光都和不愛的人處在一起,留給所愛很少的時間。一天一天地過去了,包括珍愛的友情也是,其實這個情、這個愛不只是愛情,還有包括我們對身邊的友情、親情,這個人間的愛是三體的,多方位的。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A: (你朝我笑著,起身倒了杯威士忌喝。) 談一談妳這幾天去遊走的吳爾芙與普拉斯故居之感。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:看到她們的死亡之所很感慨,冬日下的黃昏,逐漸調暗的河流成了魅惑之心,自殺者有時候反而比我們還要珍愛自己。因為他們太過重視自己對愛與這世界的感受,所以也就異常地執著,創作的起初就像修行,要執著於寫作,要執著於修法,但最後要學會放掉,不然光是得失心與評論就會吞噬了創作者的內在平衡。還有她們自視甚高,異常自戀,作家都是某種自戀的變形,只是自戀裡有深刻的反省。和一般人的自戀不同在於自戀是為了「自省」。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:自殺是因為太愛這個世界與自己,作家的自戀裡有自省的成分。 (你重複著我說的話)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:不自戀沒辦法創作,創作者不可能不關注自己(即使關注社會議題,也會對自己異常敏感),因為創作是從自我出發。自戀或許不準確,因為也可能為了自傷而創作,為了自毀而創作,但基本上這裡說的「自戀」是把目光定在「自己」身上,不管是戀或是厭。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:(你點頭,我聞到一股甜味。)自戀偏執也是創作的出發點,要帶點不馴服的野性。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:創作時,那個「作者我」要 「作品」還強大。所以我現在生命很艱難,因為學習佛法需要鍛鍊的是「無我」,可是住在裡面的「這個我」又變得很強大,還有自己很愛孤獨,但學習佛法後常要入眾,把自己化為什麼都沒有的團體一份子,拿掉個性與拿掉喜憎好惡,把自己化為沒有面目的人,和創作完全相反。我發現佛法為何很多人會學不久,因為佛法是要我們去面對自己「不能」與「討厭」的那一面,它不是讓你選擇你愛的那一面,所以這很難。常會有矛盾掙扎的狀態跑出來,但這也是好事,因為先懂執著才知什麼是不執著。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:(你聽著我說執著,你生命很少用的字眼。)不執著妳就不會出現在這裡了,妳要以很大的渴望才能抵達這座陌生之城。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:所以這兩端又得再找新的寧靜,新的平衡點,所以我覺得,我一直慢慢地在學習平衡,這真的是最大的學習。我的寫作與佛法兩端有點像是入煙花又入佛家。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:像我之前幫雜誌採訪人物,只要對象體有一個觀點出來就可以寫了,因為我採訪的是他們生命的本體,他們其實本身都已有一個強烈的生命故事。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:你怎麼找到這些人?</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:就好像我如何找到妳的心靈之旅一樣,像妳想寫吳爾芙來到英國,很奇怪,意念自己會去把他們召喚到我們的生命現場。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:意念是佛家很重要的觀想功夫,大千世界都在意念裡。</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:當你想要的時候,你慢慢等它出現,意念可以催發事情的產生。所以我喜歡妳的東方思維,意念很強大。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:嗯,所以我們東方常說,心存善念。(終於換我點點頭了,我望著你的瞳孔,看見這座海洋裡,映著我的米色肌膚。)</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:以前有一個老師問我:失戀多久才走得出來?有些人說三天,有些人說三個月,然後我就想...... 我大槪要...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:一生...... (妳幫我回答,我大笑著。)</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:好在妳不會傷害我。像我以前有一段戀愛一談三年,我知道為什麼了,每個人需要的療癒過程不同,且因對象不同而使癒合時間迥異......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B :有些感情比較像是地標性的,感情的地圖裡會浮起幾座地標式的人物...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:地標性的人物。妳的感情經典地標?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:嗯,有些人是站在經典的位置,幾乎就是等同於我的人生,有些感情是把我推向作家的重要關鍵人物。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:那我把妳推向那裡? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:你把我推向慾望的試驗場。(我笑著)其實很多女生在年輕的時候,多會遇到一個比她大很多的情人,他扮演一個知識的晵蒙者。尤其在台灣這個文化社會裡頭,女生也比較不容易遇到比自己年紀小的,加上男生又比較晚熟,所以二十出頭時,女生常會遇到三十幾歲的社會老江湖......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:我們相仿,同世代的,各自都經歷過經典地標式的感情淬鍊,雖然我是異性,但異性也有感情的晵蒙者,只是未必是從對象而來,有時候是來自於工作場域的人。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:所以二十幾歲的女生很容易遇到比自己大上十幾歲的異性,且那時候他們魅力正勃發之時,在女生很迷惘與青春動盪的時候遇見這樣的老江湖情人時,如果愛情談得夠透徹,通常感情即使失去了,女生卻也成長了。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳當時很仰慕他吧?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我記得第一次看到他時還會發抖。後來都沒有這種經驗,之後我一直在尋找生命再次的這種經驗,卻都沒有再遇到。幾乎是第一個搖撼我精神面的晵蒙者,故稱為愛情的經典地標。像巴黎鐵塔,高高聳立在整座城市的目光裡......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:我最近剛寫完一個劇本,結果和導演吵架。電影不好搞,作家通常很受傷。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我大學剛畢業的時候也去當過電影劇照師,那是我比較廣泛接觸影像的年代 。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:後來怎麼離開了?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:因為發現自己是可以好好寫作的人,只是當時好像沒有人提醒我而已,或者沒有機會去寫。我遇到經典情人的時候,他覺得我的文字風格可以寫作,當時我當記者,但他知道我只是在報社經驗一段生命而已,且我的語言一點也不記者,文字風格很華沁,每次都夾議夾敘,很不客觀,很多字詞都不是報導會用的。所以他就跟我說:喜歡寫作就好好寫,可是最主要的不是他鼓勵我去做什麼,其實人要做什麼都是自己才能決定的。而是他給我成為作家之前的龐大養分,他給了我很多閱讀世界的開展途徑。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:開書單啊,學校老師也會,我也會啊。 (你笑了!像個孩子,帶點不屑與嫉妒口吻)</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:可是他做得好細好細,像是瞬間要把我推向閱讀寶藏國度似的。做到讓我感動,因為我當時也在報社,所以我不太願意提起往事,事實上那一年八個月是一個知識性上的震撼學習,所以後來我就去紐約讀書了。如果沒有那一年八個月,我也不會去紐約讀書,那時候幾乎每天回到報社的位子上,都會收到他把當天精彩的文章剪給我。我每天都期待到報社,期待收到他的剪報,真是懷念手工年代。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:對方是媒體前輩? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:不是,但也算是......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:我不是要問妳他是誰,妳講了我也聽不懂。我是要問妳,他那時給妳的感覺是這條路上的前輩。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:可以這麼算,或者說對人生探索的前輩。但是因為他會剪些文章給我,然後....... 我覺得那時候,去這個報社上班是因為有他在,這非常吸引我,否則我一點也不想去上班...... 我每次都會要在一個地方找一個會讓我朝思暮想的人,這樣我就有了前進的動力了...... 再苦都有動力前進。比如來英國,沒有你,當然就少了泰半的動力。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:我真幸運,可以讓妳有出發的動力。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:如果沒有動力,就會覺得索然無味。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:對方當時已婚嗎?妳不想講的話就繼續跳過往前。妳每次回想到他的心情是什麼?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:一種會莫名憂傷的感覺,發現憂傷的盡頭原來是愛情。愛情的盡頭是一座海, 非常的戲劇性,充滿變化。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:這麼慘又這麼美? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:其實說就是每回想起來都有「無智亦無得」之感,往後感情走下坡了,像是一個孤獨者再也找不到同類的友伴,突然在茫茫人海啜泣起來,想起他有這種感覺。其實走下坡也很舒服,不是悲慘之感,憂傷倒是真的。因為走上坡比較累,跟他就一直要走上坡,因為他一直要拉我跟他成長,走下坡其實就賴著懶著,或者是不前進,不一定走下坡就不好,滾到一個位置自動就會停止了。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:這段感情無以為繼的原因?不能走下去的原因?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:因為我去紐約了,所以兩地相思就來考驗脆弱的我,當時年輕,沒有意志力......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:既然這麼愛,怎麼捨得分開?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:其實是我個性的缺點,應該說是我年輕時意志力很薄弱,我去紐約都被紐約繁華與邂逅給吸引住了,忽然就變心了,雖然心裡愛他,但身體卻變心。有點像泰德•休斯,管不住身體了。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:被紐約的帥哥吸引走了?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:嗯...... 有那麼一點,對,就跟看見他一樣。沒有移情別戀,應該算是嘗試新的生活...... 其實這種東西很難被解釋,心裡愛一個人,但身體卻想體驗新的人生。感情是殘酷的,他一見面就已經知道我奮力地往紐約來擴建自己的感官帝國,他已經知道他不再是我的帝王教師了。他非常明白,看一眼我的眼神就明白了。有一次在兩岸三地的機場碰面,一碰面,他就明白了。情人的眼光如檢驗師,他很厲害,我卻以為自己偽裝得很好,那個明白倒不是說知道我的身心,反正就是...... 就是他覺得他不再是我唯一的感情上岸之地了。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:他當時散發出怎樣的氣息?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我也不知道,往事如煙,我都快忘了。我一定是很忽略他吧,他知道,忽略一個人時,即使一個眼神,對方都會感受到。我覺得情人很容易從小動作看出對方有沒有變化,很厲害,所以每個情人都是最好的偵探家。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳見到他時,他依然熾烈? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:人的本能。當他跟我相處的時候,一個很微小的事情都足以使愛情崩裂,好像當時我買荔枝吧,我記得我把整串荔枝都吃完了,竟連給他一顆都沒有...... 我就在通往廣西的火車上一直吃,完全忽略他的存在,太明顯了,可是我當時竟一點察覺也沒有。忽略,就是忽略,忽略最容易勾起情人的痛苦,就像泰德·休斯當時趕著去倫敦見艾西亞時,竟忽略了疼愛的女兒等著他抱她一下,普拉斯完全目睹他的心慌意亂,男人心急如焚所導致的眼前忽略,忽略是最大的殺傷力。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳年輕的時候是怎麼樣的一個情人?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我以前跟現在不一樣,包括長相,所以...... 很多人,很多年輕時候的朋友看到我說差異很大,因為我以前長得比較野性,相由心生......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:他以前追逐得轟轟烈烈嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:也沒有追逐,就是本性表現而已,我以前比較任性,所以工作也都做得很短,最多兩年。 (拿出皮夾裡的年輕照片)我覺得以前跟現在簡直像兩個人,這是我紐約時候的樣子,大鬈髮,眼神迷濛...... 眩惑...... </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:覺得妳當時頗有敢愛敢恨的樣子。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:就是個性比較有稜有角...... 這些都是當時紐約拍的。</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:很有神祕感,很有味道,很異國情調......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:那時候認識我時我就是長這個樣子,就是比較自我的人,現在比較圓融......</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:連臉型都變圓了。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:那是變胖,也是被歲月磨圓的。我現在看起來反而比較年輕,完全是不太一樣的人。我最近去拍照的照片,你看,是不是比較沒有煙火味,反而有一種「退靈」之感,愈活愈回去......</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:是這樣啊,怪了。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我記得以前在紐約超市買東西的時候,還有人以為我是西班牙人,因為我那時候也不太保養,曬得很黑又燙鬈髮。很奇怪人的個性會使得面目不同,以前我眼睫毛很長,現在慢慢地竟掉了,疏了......</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:·嗯,慈眉善目。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:以前比較有稜有角,我就是個性與長相像是從異國來的,在台灣被誤以為是異國,我以前走在路上還常有外國人搭訕,現在都沒了...... </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:那妳覺得自己會被外國人勾走嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:你就是外國人啊。我以前在台北常一天到晚認識外國人,二十出頭時我走在永康街師大一帶,夏天穿著夾腳拖花裙子,幾乎每回連走在路上都有外國人來跟我要電話,後來我去紐約,到紐約也是一天到晚有人跟我講話或幹麼的,可現在就完全沒有,但我現在看起來反而比以前年輕呢,可見愛情與年輕與否無關,愛情是一種慾望,女人有慾望,就會召喚愛情。所以我覺得那是人的外相反映了内我,相由心生是真的。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳現在沒有慾望?那妳為何來倫敦?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:說真的,沒來也沒有關係。你聽了不要生氣,但來了很快樂。</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:不會,這樣很好,成熟了。沒有苦苦哀求的東西。所以妳那時候就比較喜歡轟轟烈烈的?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我覺得其實當時並不知道自己喜歡或不喜歡什麼,但是會想要去經驗生命與各種愛情,體驗生活,心裡愛著一個人,但卻不想單單守候著一個人。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:說來個性比較濃烈?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:兩極,貓與豹。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:在談感情上是這樣,濃度較高。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:所以很多人都誤以為我很温和,那只是短暫遭逢時的浮光印象,其實深度接觸才知道我這個小貓是會抓傷人的。而且我無法和同一個人在屋簷下生活超過三天。</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:但我們已超過三天。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:那是因為我們之後會分離,且一分離就不知見面的時間。那三天就不是三天了。三天像三小時。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:其實妳是個好情人,是因為妳說話的樣子。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:嗯,因為講話的腔調會讓人家以為我很温和。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:帶點溫柔的低沉與神經質的性感嫵媚。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:可是...... 那是假象。我的月亮是火象的,太陽金星是雙魚,水象只是外表和内在的黏膩。 </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳會怎樣抓傷人?當妳很有個性時,什麼是妳沒辦法忍受的?我得提防著。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:這以後你會知道。等你發現。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳什麼時候決定不婚的?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我的經典情人當年早就看穿了我,說我比較像是一間很好的咖啡館,而不是一家吃正餐的餐廳,咖啡館是一種情調的培育、撫慰,情調式的,所以他說很多人不會跟我結婚,那時候我想也是,因為那時我給人不安全,應該是不安定,因為我隨時都可能從咖啡館跑到其他的地方。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:從來都沒有家庭的幻想? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:因為我比較自我一點,就是說對獨立的空間很要求,我發現跟別人在屋簷下生活幾天就會很恐懼,想要奪門而出,慢慢體會到這一塊,就想不要結婚。我沒辦法一天到晚家裡的空間有別人存在,我連女性朋友都沒辦法住在~起,我喜歡回家時家裡空蕩蕩的沒有人。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:我是一半一半。需要一個人,也需要有人。但不至於像我有一個朋友很嚴重,他只要回家發現沒人,就開始call家人一定要回來,他無法一個人在家裡。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我跟他相反,我是回家最好完全不要有人。我最多只能忍受一隻貓。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳不會覺得很孤獨嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:不會不會,我太喜歡孤獨了。我跟你說我可以一整個月都不跟人家相處,現在是不得已,因為我學習佛法,要跟別人結善緣,我是這樣慢慢被改變的,學習佛法就是得去面對的,要慈眉善目,要有菩提心。不然我最想過阿羅漢生活,當然我走在繁華市區裡也很開心,只是我不會渴望要有人陪,一個人到處晃晃很好 。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:所以我們可以兩地相思。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:對啊,我不用找別人。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳不怕我找別人? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:你應該去找別人,因為我會離開。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳好奇怪,老是把拉近的人又大力推開。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:個性,本質喜歡一個人。但好像被懲罰,我現在卻一天到晚總在人群裡。 </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:既然喜歡一個人,為什麼要改變?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:其實沒有改變,是多了訓練。融入各種情境的一種學習,因為...... 喜歡只是逃避嘛,因為一個人是容易逃避的,畢竟得之於這個世界很多眾生的恩德,願意去給予,因為光是一個人是不能給予的,是鎖在自己的繭裡面,現在學習給予,大部分都是因為看見別人的需要,才跟別人見面的,因為對方想跟我聊天講話,我才出門的。我幾乎很少主動打電話跟人家說:我想跟你見面,我想你陪我去做什麼...... 我的生活裡幾乎沒有這塊,從來沒有打電話說,你要陪我幹麼,幾乎都是別人打給我,問我可以見面嗎?然後我聽見對方很期待的聲音,所以我才奔赴,我覺得朋友需要。我印象裡同一個對象只有兩三次會主動打給對方,但打兩三次就不會再打。我很少打電話,電話裡都是為了談公事,或因為佛法中心有事需要我打電話。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:這樣怎麼認識別人?</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:不會啊,因為別人很喜歡跟我在一起,我也會赴約啦,我常跟很多朋友說:請你們主動找 我。他們知道我不太會找人。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:這我聽進去了,要主動找妳。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:兩地分隔反而在一起會久一點,我們如果常見面,很快就燒完了熱情。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳最短的戀情多久?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:三個月吧,常看到對方,他也常看到我,太密集了,而且看到彼此的醜陋面。或者覺得沒有話可談,我覺得沒話可說是最可怕的,都已經沒話了,然後...... 最長有三、四年的...... 反而友誼很久,甚至一生。很奇怪,因為我覺得自己是一個好朋友,但好像在愛情裡頭,我能給予的東西比較少。因為要錢我也沒錢,要時間我也沒有...... 要長時間陪伴我也不能...... 但我有一對聆聽的好耳朶,一顆傾聽的心......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:如果對方希望結婚呢?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B :到現在都沒有遇過要跟我結婚的。可能我給人的感覺就不是要結婚的,這也是缺點,因為代表不會走太久,好像還沒有人跟我說我我們結婚吧。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:如果有唯一的男人邀妳走入家庭,妳會考慮一下嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:是你的話,我會考慮。呵,開玩笑。其實我們在感情上都一直在假設那個人,如果那個人真的出現也許會啊,就是...... 也許選擇不婚是因為那個人沒出現。你懂我的意思嗎?就是說沒有舒服到可以讓我走進那個名為「家」的城堡,所以我沒有結婚。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:所以妳的意思是說...... 沒有真的不婚的念頭...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:也可以這麼講,就是沒有遇到,我認為我可以跟他日夜不離地相處超過七天以上的。在同一個屋簷下,要很有默契與舒服,還有那種放心,瞭解。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:早上男人問妳說:嗨,達令,早餐要吃什麼?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我對這種日復一日的生活會很煩倦,很害怕。每天都要講一樣的話。其實人是複雜的,我現在說的也還是會變化的,因為我此時此刻是在我這個固定模式的思緒裡頭。人是會變的,沒有變是因為對象體或際遇尚未來到。念頭來去...... </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:人生還未定稿。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我很怕被約束,我喜歡自己是人生劇本的導演與編劇。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳是怕被管,而不是怕人......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:對對對,怕被管,如果那個人很放縱我,比如我母親是個很嚴厲的人,包括我穿的衣服啊,什麼都會管,但目前我很少遇到那種很縱容我的情人...... 都是我縱容他們,然後我又想當回自己,所以我就跑走了。吳爾芙不和李登在一起,因為愛一個人會失去自我。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:他們對妳的要求,是哪一方面? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:因為每一個情人都不一樣,我也都忘了,可是我的印象多是不太美好的...... </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:還是說潛意識裡,會不會妳知道對方要跟妳講什麼妳就跑掉了,就是當他要求妳要做到某個樣子時...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:會啊,我其實就是過著比較像繭居的人,不是很會什麼事都跟別人分享的人,我常會躲在自己的世界。情人就會覺得被我關在門外,用一般人的話來講就是我沒有全心全意跟們相處。以前,有一個紐約男朋友就跟我說,我的心永遠都躲起來的樣子...... </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:永遠都躲起來是什麼意思?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:所謂躲起來就是我好像表面跟他們在一起,可是事實上我的心沒有打開來跟他們相處,而且我有時候腦子裡在想事情,或者跑到遠方......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳現在有躲起來嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:有打開,至少打開三分之二。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳對於哪一些人是有過他覺得虧欠於妳的?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:虧欠是一種心理的感受。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:對,但有沒有具體的?...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:具體的...... 虧欠的...... 其實虧欠就是得之於人者多,大部分在感情上,尤其年輕的時候 ,其實我現在都是給別人多,所以人生反過來,比如現在一天到晚要講話,不想講話也一直講這樣,所以就和以前的沉默生活很不一樣。奇怪,然後現在也是給得很多,我對外物與金錢什麼的都不會太執著。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">但我年輕的時候是得之於人者多,我的意思是說所有的感情裡,發現有些人的感情非常的細膩,不斷的陳述給予,過去有幾個對象的愛情的天秤很難維持,因為當對方給得太多的時候反而沒有珍惜...... 等他不再給的時候,才發現時間已經不回返了。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:這樣子聽起來好像男人主動跑掉的比較多。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:主動跑掉的比較多,對對對。因為我常說不出囗...... 所以心會躲起來,躲久愛情就走了。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:是這樣啊。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:但是短期情人多是別人先跑掉,長期情人則多是我先跑掉。短期的比方說兩三個月那種的,別人先跑掉的也有不少,可能是先發現他這種人是比較屬於玩咖的,先跑掉的都是這類型。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:好在我不是玩咖。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:短期情人有時候也會把我誤認為感情的玩咖,所以好像在比賽誰先跑掉 ,我跑得太慢了。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:感情不是比賽誰先跑得快吧。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:開玩笑,有些沒有很認真的反而會先跑掉,就是誰先忽略誰,就會有一方受不了如此的忽略而先轉身......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳剛剛提到的虧欠是指那些人,那些情人是他們先跑掉?......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我先跑掉,是我虧欠,我先感情變異,先質變了,可能在這感情的純水裡頭突然被加了什麼其他東西,於是戀人再也喝不下去的感受了。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:那個時候怎麼做都沒辦法挽回嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:對,我覺得感情最難的就是我們看見一個人的心跑掉了,然後他告訴妳他沒有跑掉,可是對方明明就覺得他的心跑掉了,因為心跑掉,於是關於任何物質、言語都是多餘,都是辯解,都是一種贖罪......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:何種狀態女生會失去愛情?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我體會到的比較是當愛情的姿態很卑微的時候,這個愛情就失去了,我沒有先跑掉的那段感情,就是因為那時候我的姿態太卑微,從女王的舞台走下來。忘了有些人只是對自己好奇而已,就好像菩薩從蓮花座上走下來,眾生獲得功德了,就又忘了菩薩。我們是從我們寫作孤獨的房間走出來,但他發現我們跟一般的女生也沒兩樣...... 頓時神祕感消失了。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">我們真正虧欠愛他的人是因為我們沒有看見他們的深情,玩咖通常都比較瀟灑,女人被某種姿態吸引,那時候就顯得她的姿態很卑微,因為她會討好,討好卑微都不是愛情的好良方,其實感情跟美醜沒什麼關係,只要有那種情慾的感覺,通常都會被吸引, 一種魅惑。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:内在的神祕性。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:所以年輕的女孩子就是本錢,有些女孩子看起來滿醜的還是有人追,就是因為身體的賀爾蒙啊,呂哈絲說女性只要有情慾就可以吸引人(艾西亞就是因此奪走了普拉斯的巨神)。所以我現在連穿著大都改變,以前多穿較合身的,你看我現在大都不穿了,意思就是現在不太希望再去結交或談什麼感情了,可見人的「姿態」是會被感情連結的,包括衣服打扮等等。外在就是一個訊息場域,會散發密碼給接收端。</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳以前喜歡的男性形象是怎麼樣?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:好像很多種欸。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:囗味很多種(笑),那不喜歡的?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我很怕很自私的,很勢利眼的,很小氣的,很自以為是的,很沒骨氣的。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:但我很自私喔。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:喔...... 會說出來的就不怎麼自私。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:那種看起來很是菁英分子的男人,妳好像也有點不喜歡?</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我也怕滿囗都是投資啊理財的。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:穿西裝的不要,要藝術家那種樣子的?......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我很怕一種故作瀟灑的偽藝術家,我還寧可選穿西裝的...... 那種穿得髒髒的窮酸腐氣一身的假藝術家。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:有和妳在一起反差很大的情人,值得在妳回憶生命時,拿出來談的嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:好像不太值得談,因為他每天就讓我開心而已,搞笑啊,就是他想要笑的時候,跟他講幾句話,就笑翻了...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:這樣不好嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:很好,可是就不會留下什麼東西,我知道為什麼人對刻骨銘心的事記得,而不會對搞笑的事情記得,搞笑就就好像去吃頓飯啊,不會記得欸,可是就覺得他很好,開心果,溫暖可愛。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:可是這樣每天日子很好過啊,因為現在很多現代人就是要笑啊...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:跟臉書貼的文章的感覺很像。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳周邊有過類似的朋友嗎?為了結婚而安協?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:有啊,有個頗有才華的女友,但她不那麼確信自己,所以她走入了一個相較性最容易最安全的容器,就是去結婚,然後剛好那個時間點那個對象出現的話,自此她就不採用她人生有才華的部分,就相夫教子,她曾經跟我經歷她生命高峰的那種才華還沒出來,也還沒成為任何什麼作家、創作者,可是我可以看到她年輕生命的動盪,覺察她有特殊的觀點在看自己的生命。如果可以把那個平凡的對象踢掉,她會有機會成為藝術家,但她就是不安全,不信任自己,當然舞台也沒有那麼及時地出現,她會等不及等待,然後就投入平凡的生活,然後那個老公跟她過去交往的對象完全不一樣,所以她的故事非常適合寫成小說,其實每段感情都有痛苦的本質吧。我會很心疼,可這就是她人生的選擇,想要過一個相夫教子的生活,就像電影「烈火情人」,那個女生最後就是。她吸引人就是那種魅惑的情慾。後來男人在機場看到她抱一個孩子,跟一般的平凡婦女一樣,我常常想到那個朋友,我身邊滿多這種女性,因為女生的不安全感大過於男性,而且某個時間女人會想要孩子......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:女生的不安全感來自於哪裡?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:女生包括身體老去,青春不再,然後生育的年齡,有些女生是真的很渴望有孩子,如果...... 那個生育的年齡恰好是她生命最動盪的時候,又在二、三十歲時,時常會投入一個不正確的婚姻,可是身體的需求告訴她要養育孩子,所以等到她差不多四十幾歲很容易離婚,因為她過去年輕的選擇,被呼喚出來的不一定是感情的課題和愛情,可能只是她的生理現象:她想要生孩子,然後遇到的這個男的也還不差,也還可以,可是他們沒有思考夫妻是兩個完全不同的個體,然後就結婚了。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:很多女生安頓在一段關係裡面,可是這段關係,沒有給她一個名分的時候,就很難再走下去。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:大多數女人不就是想要個夫妻名分,我不需要這個名分。作家就是我的名分......</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:但社會與家庭會有期待的壓力,尤其你們東方。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:比較成熟之後女生就會發現不一定要夫妻的名分,伴侶的實質才可以走得很久。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:婚姻有一種外在體制,親人家屬的力量可以把人拴住。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:嗯。但關係要靠別人來幫自己拴住,那不是太累嗎?</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:因此有些女生會變成指使老公做這個做那個的魔女,妳一路走向不婚這條路,妳怎麼樣去說服自己不要有老公,可以一個人過日子......</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我不是當家庭主婦的料。作家這個角色是需要大量孤獨的人,所以沒辦法放在家庭這個天秤上面,這個其實是最大的關鍵:我不寫作的話,也許會結婚。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:所以妳建議年輕女孩都要學會與孤獨獨處?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:一定要啊,每個人生都要學習,不一定年輕女孩,年老也要學習,因為這是生命的真相。因為我寫作,旁邊有別人走來走去也沒辦法寫,所以其實...... 其實後來會演變成跟我的寫作有很大的關係,一來本來就有...... 有這樣的資質特性了,然後寫作又強化了這個特性。有人說寫作完全是孤獨的結果,真正的寫作是孤獨的。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:選擇這條路有一絲的後悔過嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:沒有沒有,這是我最喜歡的生活。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:包括沒有孩子...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:對啊,我最熱愛寫作這件事,作品就是我的孩子。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:這我也最瞭解,但我仍渴望有小孩。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">(你伸過手掌,希望我幫你看手相,用東方的預言,來看你會有幾個孩子。)問題是妳老了之後呢,老了的退休生活呢?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B :不用想啊,沒有退休,寫作沒有退休,就是寫到死亡啊,寫到不能再寫,而且這是我最熱愛最適切自己的生活方式,太喜歡了。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳現在的牽絆?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:真的是為了親情與看見眾生的需要,比如母親的需要、比如學生的需要...... 還有對於「明心見性」的渴望。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:金錢呢? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:有不少負債,但相對於感情的牽絆,這反而好處理,可逐步還清,雖然濟弱的心仍常被滾進現實的災難裡。 </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:不會去羨慕那種「老伴,今晚吃什麼?」的手牽手畫面? </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:沒有沒有,我覺得這種畫面對我都很恐怖...... (和你牽手還比較雲淡風輕)</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:為什麼會覺得恐怖?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:因為我不要過這種身心被牽絆的執著生活。就像我們,雖然在一起,但白天我們仍各自出去的多,晚上再一起用餐,一起回到旅館,總之有段時間要完全屬於自己的。連旅行都是這樣子...... </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:有點像是可以分享晚上的短暫體溫, 但天亮了妳就沒辦法,妳有點像吸血鬼...... </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:呵,不知道誰的血會剩比較多。我覺得每個人都是獨立的個體,所以很多人跟我在一起都很自在自甶,因為我不會干涉別人,我真的不太管別人要做什麼事。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:妳這樣放心,會不會很容易被劈腿?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:劈腿就轉身啊,雖然很受傷。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:那妳自己有過劈腿狀況嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:我是美人魚,不會劈腿,但小心我會游走。游入大海,就很難回到屬於情人的海岸...... </span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:一個人睡覺寂寞嗎?</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:不太寂寞,我和很多大師共枕同眠,我把他們的靈魂都帶上床呢。</span></div>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></b>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A:請妳把我的靈魂也帶上床。</span></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">B:好的,那請你的靈魂不斷前進。</span></div>
<br />KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-29795633311212301892016-01-19T01:22:00.001+08:002016-01-19T01:23:26.490+08:00Be Cautious<div style="text-align: justify;">
Friendship and love are not one. Men and women. The difference between marriage and friendship. A last quotation from Joubert (1801): "Do not choose for your wife any woman you would not choose as your friend if she were a man."<br />
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
A rather absurd formulation, I suppose (how can a woman be a man?), but one get the point, and in essence it is not far from your remarks about <i>Parade's End</i> by Ford Mados Ford and the funny, whimsical assertion that "one goes to bed with a woman in order to be able to talk to her."<br />
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
Marriage is above all a conversation, and if husband and wife do not figure out a way to become friends, the marriage has little chance of surviving. Friendship is a component of marriage, but marriage is an ever-evolving free-for-all, a continual work in progress, a constant demand to reach down into one's deaths and reinvent oneself in relation to the other, whereas friendship pure and simple (that is, friendship outside marriage), tends to be more static, more polite, more superficial. We crave friendships because we are social being, born from other beings and destined to live among other beings until the day we die, and yet think of the quarrels that sometimes erupt in even the best marriages, the passionate disagreements, the hot-headed insults, the slammed doors and broken crockery, and one quickly understands that such behavior would not be countenanced within the decorous rooms of friendship. Friendship is good manners, kindness, steadiness of affect. Friends who shout at each other rarely remain friends. Husbands and wives who shout at each other usually stay married - often happily married.<br />
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
Can men and women be friends? I think so. As long as there is no physical attraction on either side. Once sex enters the equation, all bets are off. </div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br />
<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i><br /></i></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>Paul Auster's Letter to J.M. Coetzee, 29 July 2008, <here and="" now=""></here></i></span><here and="" now=""></here></div>
KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-71411665024602455002015-03-18T22:32:00.000+08:002015-03-18T22:34:00.529+08:00Wake up from sweet dream<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGoSnG6VkY3xx_FqdgqJUPBQG3gKkH9VlG2FcXVh8mqpDTxhhb6q4vvf_VZ1RE6wHPz0F-bEmCqMrCyPtxuAl0BzuZFftqngfXXiAKBPpa8mQmQNkdYfvl4n0x7YrlfxPD8A6Z4w/s1600/150308_030a.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGoSnG6VkY3xx_FqdgqJUPBQG3gKkH9VlG2FcXVh8mqpDTxhhb6q4vvf_VZ1RE6wHPz0F-bEmCqMrCyPtxuAl0BzuZFftqngfXXiAKBPpa8mQmQNkdYfvl4n0x7YrlfxPD8A6Z4w/s1600/150308_030a.jpg" height="480" width="640" /></a></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13.1999998092651px; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #666666; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 13.3333339691162px; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">wake up from sweet dream </span></span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13.3333339691162px; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif;">and realize it was nightmare</span></span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13.1999998092651px; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13.1999998092651px; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">also on </span><a href="http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/" style="background-color: white; color: #888888; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13.1999998092651px; line-height: 18.4799995422363px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/</a></div>
KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-27753027077853653632015-01-02T02:23:00.004+08:002015-01-02T02:23:39.014+08:00地下鐵碰著她 J'ai la recontré dans le metro<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-iJBi3QT7nSgUKgRKqlqCddgQXqmzXX6kN-JZ7T29aIX6ZWZwIZeq0Ws-4LRmzXT_dMhrIK1ox3SyqheK0yTwfUSuzY9FGlYu3zJC8cwKJUG3G7-5EdrDNBXR77dbH1UGWlgsxA/s1600/130421_146a.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-iJBi3QT7nSgUKgRKqlqCddgQXqmzXX6kN-JZ7T29aIX6ZWZwIZeq0Ws-4LRmzXT_dMhrIK1ox3SyqheK0yTwfUSuzY9FGlYu3zJC8cwKJUG3G7-5EdrDNBXR77dbH1UGWlgsxA/s1600/130421_146a.jpg" height="474" width="640" /></a><br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
This is the end of the Island Line. </div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
This is the end of parallel rails.</div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
also on <a href="http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/" target="_blank">http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/</a></div>
KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-9791761839895400592014-12-09T01:07:00.002+08:002014-12-09T01:07:39.414+08:00再起爐灶 Build a new stove余另有一博投產有時,乃有關於漫遊香港之紀錄及故事,敬請看倌移玉觀賞指導。<br />
<a href="http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/" target="_blank">http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/</a><br />
<br />
Another blog of mine under production for some months - photos and stories about a flâneur in Hongkong. Please proceed to visit and comments are always welcomed.<br />
<a href="http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/" target="_blank">http://hongkong-flaneur.blogspot.hk/</a>KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-67854367279694648022014-02-04T15:31:00.002+08:002014-02-04T15:31:27.282+08:00Master of Analogue #1<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We can understand the meaning of this stay in spirit country only if we are able to interpret properly the purpose of our life’s pilgrimage in an incarnation. While we are incarnated in physical bodies, we human beings work and create in the physical world, but we work and create as spiritual beings. What we imprint on physical forms, materials and forces our spirits think out and develop. Our task as messengers of the spiritual world is to incorporate the spirit into the material world. Only through incarnating in physical bodies can we work in the material world. We must take on physical bodies as our tools so that we have something material through which to work on the material world and through which the material world can work on us. However, what works through our human bodily nature is the spirit. The intentions and directions for our work in the material world come from the spirit.</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It is true that one of the tasks of the human spirit, as long as this spirit is proceeding from incarnation to incarnation, is to work in the physical world, but this task could not be completed appropriately if the spirit lived only an embodied existence. The intentions and goals of an earthly task are no more worked out and determined within an earthly incarnation than the blueprint for a building comes about on the site where the builders are already at work. The plan for the building is worked out in the architect’s office, and the goals and intentions of earthly endeavor are developed in the country of spirits, where each human spirit must dwell again and again between incarnations in order to equip itself for work in a physical lifetime. The architect draws up the plan for a house in the office, according to architectural and other standards, and does this without touching actual bricks and mortar. Similarly, the architect of human creativity— the spirit or higher self—develops the necessary goals and capabilities according to the laws of the country of spirit beings, in order to then send them into the earthly world. Only by returning again and again to its own realm will a human spirit be able to bring the spirit into the earthly world by means of its physical-material instrument. </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">In the physical arena, we learn to know the characteristics and forces of the physical world; while working, we gather experience about what the physical world requires of those who want to work in it. We also learn to know the characteristics of the matter we intend to use to embody our thoughts and ideas, although these ideas and thoughts themselves cannot be derived from matter. Thus the physical world is the setting for both work and learning. Afterwards, in spirit country, what has been learned is transformed into the active abilities and capacities of the human spirit.</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To make things clearer, the comparison we used above can be taken further. An architect works out a design for a house, and this plan is carried out. In the process, the architect gains experience in a number of ways so that his or her capabilities are enhanced. When the next design has to be drawn up, all these experiences flow into it. The second design is enriched by everything learned in the process of carrying out the first. It is the same with successive human lifetimes. In the intervals between incarnations, the spirit is at home in its own realm and is able to devote itself totally to the requirements of spiritual life. Released from physical existence, it develops in all directions and incorporates the fruits of its experience in previous lifetimes into this process. Its attention is thus always directed to the earthly context of its tasks. To </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">the extent that the earth is the spirit’s field of action, the spirit is constantly working to keep pace with the earth’s evolution, and is working on itself so that in each incarnation the service it performs corresponds to the earth’s situation at that time.</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 18.479999542236328px;">Extract from «Theosophy», by Rudolf Steiner</span></div>
KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-79086912514660939192014-01-10T23:53:00.001+08:002014-01-10T23:57:07.624+08:00Metade Fumaça continues<span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Looking first at memory,
we can ask how it comes about. Obviously the process is quite different from
how</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">sensation
or perception comes about. Without eyes, I</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">could not have the
sensation of blue. However, my eyes</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">do not give me any memory of the blue; for
them to provide</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">the sensation, something blue must be in view at this</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">moment.
My bodily nature would allow all impressions to</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">sink back down into
oblivion if something were not also</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">taking place in the relationship between
the outer world</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">and my soul—namely the formation of a current mental</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">image
through the act of perception, with the result that,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">through inner processes,
I may later again have a mental</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">image of something that originally brought
about a mental</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">image from outside. People who have become practiced</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">at
observing the soul will realize that it is all wrong</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">to say that if I have a
mental image today, the same mental</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">image shows up again tomorrow in my memory,
having</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">stayed somewhere inside me in the meantime. On the</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">contrary,
the mental image that I have right now is a phenomenon</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">that passes away with the
present moment. But</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">if memory intervenes, a process takes place in me that is</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">the
result of something additional that has gone on in the</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">relationship between me
and the outer world, something</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">other than the evoking of the current
mental image. The</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">old mental image has not been “stored” anywhere; the</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">one
my memory calls up is a new one. Remembering</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">means being able to
visualize something anew; it does not</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">mean that a mental image can come to life
again. What</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">appears today is something different from the original</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">mental
image.</span><br />
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">Remembering means
experiencing</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">something that is no longer there, linking a</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">past
experience to my present life. This happens in every</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">instance of remembering.
Suppose I meet someone I recognize</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">because I met him or her yesterday. This
person</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">would be a total stranger to me if I could not link the
image</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">formed
through yesterday’s perception to my impression</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">of today. Today’s image
is given to me by perception,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">that is, by my sensory system. But who
conjures</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">up yesterday’s image into my soul? It is the same being
in</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">me
who was present at both yesterday’s encounter and today’s.</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">Throughout
the preceding discussion, this being</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">has been called “the soul.”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">Without
this trusty keeper of</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">the past, every external impression would be a new one</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">for
us. The soul imprints on the body the process by</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">which something becomes a
memory. However, the soul</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">must first do the imprinting, and then
perceive its imprint</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">just as it perceives something outside itself. In this
way,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">the
soul is the keeper of memory.</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">Something happens to us,
“bumps into us,” enters our</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">life as if by chance—or so we tend to think
at first. We</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">can become aware, however, that each one of us is the
result</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">of many such “chance” occurrences. If at the age of</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">forty
I take a good look at myself and refuse to be content</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">with an empty, abstract
concept of the “I” as I ponder my</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">soul’s essential nature, I may well
conclude that I am</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">nothing more and nothing less than what I have become</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">through
what has happened to me until now as a matter</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">of destiny. I would
probably have been a different person</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">if, at age twenty, I had had a different
series of experiences</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">than what actually did happen to me. I will then</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">look
for my “I” not only in its developmental influences</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">that come from within,
but also in what exerts a formative</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">influence on my life from outside. I will
recognize</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">my own “I” in what “happens to” me.</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">If
we give ourselves impartially to such a realization, we</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">need to take only one
more step in intimately observing</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">life before we can see, in what comes to us
through certain</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">experiences of destiny, something that takes hold of the</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">“I”
from outside, just as memory works from inside to</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">allow past experiences to
light up again. In this way, we</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">can become able to recognize an experience
of destiny as</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">a past action of the soul finding its way to the “I,”
just as a</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">memory is a past experience that is reinvoked by outer
circumstances</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">and finds its way into our minds as a mental</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;">image.</span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-language: ZH-HK; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Extract from «Theosophy», by Rudolf Steiner</span></div>
KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-48268785228913633512013-11-28T00:52:00.000+08:002013-11-28T00:52:55.981+08:00comme si je suis destiné de voir ces mots aujourd'hui #4<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Mr. Paulo are you reading my mind?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">=======================</span></div>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Je te comprends. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Je suis content. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Je suis triste, cela me fait penser que tu vas partir. Je le savais depuis notre première rencontre, pourtant c'est difficile parce que je me suis habituée.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- C'est là le problème : l'habitude. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Mais c'est humain.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- C'est pour cette raison que la femme que j'ai épousée est devenue le Zahir. Jusqu'au jour de l'accident, je m'étais convaincu que je ne pourrais être heureux qu'avec elle, et pas parce que je l'aimais plus que tout au monde, mais parce que je pensais qu'elle seule me comprenait, connaissait mes goûts mes manies, ma façon de voir la vie. Je lui étais reconnaissant de ce qu'elle avait fait pour moi, je pensais qu'elle devait m'être reconnaissante de ce que j'avais fait pour elle. J'étais habitué à regarder le monde avec ses yeux. Te rappelles-tu l'histoire des deux hommes qui sortent de l'incendie, l'un avec le visage couvert de cendres ? »</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Elle a retiré sa tête de mon épaule ; j'ai noté qu'elle avait les yeux pleins de larmes. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« Eh bien le monde, c'était cela pour moi, ai-je poursuivi. Un reflet de la beauté d'Esther. Est-ce l'amour ? Ou est-ce une dépendance ?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Je ne sais pas. Je pense qu'amour et dépendance vont ensemble. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Peut-être. Mais supposons qu'au lieu d'écrire <i>Un temps pour déchirer et un temps pour coudre</i>, qui n'est en réalité qu'une lettre à une femme qui est loin, j'avais choisi un autre scénario, par exemple :</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« Le mari et la femme sont ensemble depuis dix ans. Ils faisaient l'amour tous les jours, maintenant il ne font l'amour qu'une fois par semaine, mais finalement ce n'est pas si grave : il y a la complicité, le soutien mutuel, la camaraderie. Lui est triste quand il doit dîner tout seul parce qu'elle a dû rester plus tard au travail. Elle, elle se plaint quand il part en voyage, mais comprend que cela fait partie de son métier. Ils sentent que quelque chose commence à manquer, mais ils sont adultes, ils ont atteint la maturité, ils savent à quel point il est important de maintenir une relation stable, ne serait-ce qu'au nom des enfants. Ils se consacrent de plus en plus à leur travail et à leurs enfants, pensent de moins en moins à leur mariage - apparemment il va très bien, il n'y a pas d'autre homme ou d'autre femme.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« Ils constatent qu'il y a un problème. Ils n'arrivent pas à le cerner. À mesure que le temps passe, ils sont de plus en plus dépendants l'un de l'autre, finalement l'âge arrive, les occasions de changer de vie s'éloignent. Ils cherchent à s'occuper de plus en plus - lecture, broderie, télévision, amis - mais il y a toujours la conversation au dîner, ou la conversations après le dîner. Lui s'irrite facilement, elle devient plus silencieuse que d'habitude. Chacun sait que l'autre est de plus en plus distant et ne comprend pas pourquoi. Ils parviennent à la conclusion que le mariage est ainsi mais se refusent à en parler avec leurs amis, ils donnent l'image d'un couple heureux, de deux personnes qui se soutiennent mutuellement, qui ont les mêmes intérêts Apparaissent un amant par-ci, une maîtresse par-là, rien de grave, bien sûr. Ce qui est important, nécessaire, définitif, c'est d'agir comme si de rien n'était, il est trop tard pour changer. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Je connais cette histoire, bien que je ne l'aie jamais vécue. Et je pense que nous nous entraînons toute notre vie à endurer des situations comme celle-là. »</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">==========================</span></div>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">J'enlève mon pardessus et je grimpe sur le rebord de la fontaine. Maire demande ce que je vais faire. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« Marcher jusqu'à la colonne.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- C'est de la folie. C'est déjà printemps, la couche de glace doit être très fine.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Je dois marcher jusque-là. »</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Je mets le pied, toute la couche de glace se déplace, mais ne se brise pas. Pendant que je regardais le lever du soleil, j'ai fait une sorte de pari avec Dieu : j'au parié que si je parvenais à atteindre la colonne sans que la glace se brise, m'indiquait la route à suivre. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« Tu vas tomber dans l'eau.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Et alors ? Au pire je risque de prendre un bain glacé, mais l'hôtel n'est pas loin et la souffrance ne durera pas longtemps. »</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Je mets l'autre pied : maintenant je suis entièrement dans la fontaine, la glace se décolle sur les bords, un peu d'eau monte à la surface, mais elle ne se brise pas. Je marche dans la direction de la colonne, ce ne sont que quatre mètres si l'on considère l'aller et retour, et le seul danger, c'est que je tombe dans l'eau. Mais pas questions de penser à ce qui peut arriver : j'ai fait le premier pas, je dois aller jusqu'au bout.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Je marche, j'atteins la colonne, je la touche de la main, entends tout craquer, mais je suis encore à la surface. Ma première réaction est de courir, mais quelque chose me dit que si je fais cela, mes pas deviendront plus fermes, plus lourds, et je tomerai à l'eau. Je dois revenir lentement, au même rythme. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Le soleil se lève devant moi et m'aveugle un peu, je vois seulement la silhouette de Marie et les contours des édifices et des arbres. La couche de glace bouge de plus en plus, l'eau continue de jaillir sur les bords, inondant la surface, mais je sais - j'ai la certitude absolue - que je vais réussir, parce que je suis en communion avec le jour, avec mes choix, je connais les limites de l'eau glacée, je sais comment la prendre, lui demander de m'aider, de ne pas me laisser tomber. Je commence à entrer dans une sorte de transe, d'euphorie ; je redeviens un enfant qui fait des choses interdites et des bêtises, mais y prend un immense plaisir. Quelle joie! Des pactes fous avec Dieu, du genre « si je réussis ceci, il va se passer cela », des signes provoqués non par ce qui vient de extérieur mais par instinct, par la capacité d'oublier les vieilles règles et de créer des situations nouvelles. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Je suis reconnaissant d'avoir rencontré Mikhail, l’épileptique qui pense entendre des voix. Je suis allé à sa rencontre en cherchant ma femme, et j'ai fini par découvrir que j'étais devenu un pâle reflet de moi-même. Esther compte-t-elle toujours autant ? Je le pense, c'est son amour qui a changé ma vie un jour et me transforme encore aujourd'hui. Mon histoire était vielle, de plus en plus lourde à porter, trop sérieuse pour que je me permettre des risques comme celui de marcher dans une fontaine, faisant un pari avec Dieu, traquant un signe. J'avais oublié qu'il fallait toujours refaire le chemin de Saint-Jacques, jeter les bagages inutiles, ne garder que le nécessaire pour vivre chaque jour. Laisser l’énergie de l'amour circuler librement, du dehors au dedans, du dedans au dehors. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Un nouveau craquement, une fissure apparaît - mais je sais que je vais réussir parce que je suis léger, très léger je pourrais même marcher sur un nuage et je ne tomberais pas sur la terre. Je ne porte pas le poids de la renommée, des histoires racontées, des scénarios à venir ; je suis transparent, je laisse les rayons de soleil traverser mon corps et illuminer mon âme Je comprends qu'il y a encore en moi beaucoup de zone d'ombre, mais elles s’éclaireront peu à peu, avec de la persévérance et du courage.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Encore un pas, et le souvenir d'une enveloppe sur ma table. Bientôt je 'ouvrirai, et au lieu de marcher sur la glace, je prendrai la route qui me conduira à Esther. Ce n'est plus parce que je la désire à mes cotes, elle est libre de rester là où elle se trouve. Ce n'est plus parce que je rêve jour et nuit du Zahir ; l'obsession amoureuse, destructrice semble avoir disparu. Ce n'est plus parce que je me suis habitué à mon passé et désire ardemment y retourner. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Autre pas, autre craquement, mais le rebord salvateur de la fontaine approche. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">J'ouvrirai l'enveloppe et j'irai à sa rencontre, car, comme le dit Mikhail l'épileptique, le voyant, le gourou du restaurant arménien, cette histoire doit se terminer. Alors, quand tout aura été raconté et re-raconté à maintes reprises, quand les lieux où je suis passé, les moments que j'ai vécus, les pas que j'ai faits à cause d'elle se transformeront en lointains souvenirs, il restera seulement, simplement, l'amour pur. Je ne sentirai pas que je « dois » quelque chose, je ne penserai pas que j'ai besoin d'elle parce qu'elle seule est capable de me comprendre, parce que je suis habitué à elle, parce qu'elle connait mes défauts, mes qualités, les toasts que j'aimes manger avant de me coucher, les informations internationales à la télévision quand je me réveille, les promenades obligatoires tous les matins, les livres sur la pratique du tir à l'arc, les heures passées devant l’écran de l'ordinateur, la colère que je ressens quand la bonne appelle plusieurs fois pour dire que le repas est sur la table. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Tout cela disparaîtra Il restera l'amour qui déplace le ciel, les étoiles, les hommes, les fleurs, les insectes, qui nous pousse à marcher dangereusement sur la glace, nous emplit de joie et de crainte mais donne un sens à tout.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Je touche la murette de pierre, une main se tend, je la saisis, Marie m'aide à reprendre mon équilibre et à descendre.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« Je suis fière de toi. Jamais je n'aurais fait cela.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Je crois qu'il y a quelque temps, moi non plus je ne l'aurais pas fait ; cela semble infantile, irresponsable, sans aucune raison concrète. Mais je suis en train de renaître, je dois prendre des risques nouveaux. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- La lumière du matin te fait du bien : tu parles comme un sage.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">- Les sages ne font pas ce que je viens de faire. »</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Extrait de Paulo Coelho «Zahir»</span>KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-67514561139478797312013-11-12T15:37:00.002+08:002013-11-12T15:37:42.161+08:00Esther demande pourquoi les gens sont tristes<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« Esther demande pourquoi les gens sont tristes.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« ‘’C’est simple, répond le vieillard. Ils sont prisonniers de leur
histories personnelle. Tout le monde est convaincu que le but de cette vie est
de suivre un plan. Personne ne se demande si ce plan est le sien ou s’il a été
inventé par quelqu’un d’autre. Tous accumulent des expériences, des souvenirs,
des objets, des idées qui ne sont pas les leurs, et c’est plus qu’ils ne
peuvent porter. Et c’est ainsi qu’ils oublient leur rêves. ‘’<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« Esther fait observer que beaucoup de gens lui disent : ‘’Vous avez
de la chance, vous savez ce que vous voulez dans la vie ; moi, je ne sais
pas ce que je désire faire.’’<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">« Bien sûr qu’ils savent, répond le nomade. Combien en connaissez-vous qui
passent leur vie à déclarer : ‘Je n’ai rien fait de ce que je désirais,
mais c’est cela la réalité. S’ils disent qu’ils n’ont pas fait ce qu’ils
désiraient c’est bien qu’ils savaient ce qu’ils voulaient. Quant à la réalité,
c’est seulement l’histoire que les autres nous ont racontée sur le monde et la
façon dont nous devions nous y comporter. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Et combien disent pire : ‘Je suis content parce que je sacrifie ma
vie pour ceux que j’aime.’<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Croyez-vous que les gens qui nous aiment désirent nous voir souffrir
pour eux ? Croyez-vous que l’amour soit source de souffrance ?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Pour être sincère, je le crois. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Eh bien, il ne devrait pas l’être. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Si j’oublie l’histoire que l’on m’a racontée, j’oublierai aussi des
choses très importantes que la vie m’a enseignées. Pourquoi ai-je fait des
efforts pour apprendre tout cela ?Pourquoi ai-je fait des efforts pour
acquérir de l’expérience et savoir m’y prendre avec mon activité
professionnelle, mon mari et mes crises ?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Les connaissances accumulées sont utiles pour faire la cuisine, ne pas
dépenser plus que l’on ne gagner, être à l’abri en hiver, respecter certaines
limites, savoir où vont certaines lignes d’autocar et de chemin de fer. Mais
croyez-vous que vos amours passées vous ont appris à mieux aimer ?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Elles m’ont appris à savoir ce que je désirais.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Ce n’était pas ma question. Vous amours passées vous ont-elles aidée à
mieux aimer votre mari ?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Au contraire. Pour pouvoir me donner complètement à lui, j’ai dû oublier
les cicatrices laissées par d’autres hommes. Est-ce de cela que vous
parlez ?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Pour que la véritable énergie d’amour puisse traverser votre âme, elle
doit vous trouver comme si vous veniez de naître. Pourquoi les gens sont-ils
malheureux ? Parce qu’ils veulent emprisonner cette énergie, ce qui est
impossible. Oublier l’histoire personnelle, c’est garder ce canal pur, laisser
chaque jour cette énergie se manifester comme elle le désire, se laisser guider
par elle.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Très romantique, mais très difficile, parce que cette énergie est
toujours prisonnière de beaucoup de choses : les engagements, les enfants,
les obligations sociales …<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- … et au bout de quelque temps, le désespoir, la peur, la solitude, la
volonté de contrôler l’incontrôlable. Selon la tradition des steppes, appelée
Tengri, pour vivre dans la plénitude, il fallait être constamment en mouvement,
ainsi chaque jour était différent de l’autre. Quand ils traversaient les
villes, les nomades pensaient : ‘Pauvres de ceux qui vivent ici, pour eux
tout est pareil !’ Peut-être que les habitants de la ville regardaient les
nomades et pensaient : ‘Les pauvres, ils n’ont aucun endroit où
vivre !’ Les nomades n’avaient pas de passé, seulement un présent, c’est
pourquoi ils étaient toujours heureux – jusqu’au moment où les dirigeants
communistes les ont obligés à cesser de voyager, et les ont retenus dans des
fermes collectives. Dès lors, ils se sont mis peu à peu à croire l’histoire
dont la société disait qu’elle était la vraie. De nos jours, ils ont perdu leur
force.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Personne, de nos jours, ne peut passer sa vie à voyager.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Si l’on ne peut pas voyager physiquement, on peut le faire sur le plan
spirituel. Aller de plus en plus loin, prendre ses distances avec son histoire
personnelle, avec ce que l’on nous a forcés à être. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Que faire pour abandonner cette histoire que l’on nous a racontée ?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- La répéter à haute voix, dans ses moindres détails. À mesure que nous
racontons, nous nous séparons de ce que nous avons été et – vous le verrez, si
vous décidez d’essayer – nous faisons de la place pour un monde nouveau et
inconnu. Répéter cette histoire ancienne très souvent, jusqu’à ce qu’elle n’ait
plus d’importance pour nous. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- C’est tout ?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Il reste un détail : à mesure que les espaces sont inoccupés, pour
éviter que cela ne nous cause un sentiment de vide, il faut les remplir
rapidement, même si c’est provisoire. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Comment ?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Avec des histoires différentes, des expériences que nous n’osons pas
faire, ou que nous ne voulons pas faire. C’est ainsi que nous changeons. C’est
ainsi que l’amour grandit. Et quand l’amour grandit, nous grandissons avec lui.
<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Cela signifie également que nous pouvons perdre des choses qui sont
importantes. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<br />
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-- Jamais. Les choses importantes demeurent toujours – ce qui disparaît ce
sont celles que nous jugions importantes, mais qui sont inutiles, comme le faux
pouvoir de contrôler l’énergie de l’amour. ‘’</span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FR"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Extraits de Paul Coelho « Le Zahir »</span></span></div>
KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-24625962671297913552013-11-08T17:57:00.000+08:002013-11-08T17:57:52.363+08:00j'ai compris que c'était toujours moi que je cherchais dans les femmes que j'aimais<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">« Marie, supposons que deux pompiers entrent dans une forêt pour éteindre un petit incendie. À la fin, quand ils en sortent, ils vont au bord d'un ruisseau, l'un a le visage tout couvert de cendres, et l'autre est d'une propreté immaculée. Je demande : lequel des deux va se laver le visage?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">- C'est une question idiote : il est évident que ce sera celui qui est couvert de cendres. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">- Faux : celui dont le visage est sales va regarder l'autre et penser qu'il est dans le même état. Et vice versa : celui qui a le visage propre va voir que son compagnon a de la suie partout, et il se dira : "Je dois être sale moi aussi, l'ai besoin de me laver."</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">- Que veux-tu dire?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">- Je veux dire que pendant mon séjour à l’hôpital j'ai compris que c'était toujours moi que je cherchais dans les femmes que j'aimais. Je regardais leurs beaux visages propres et je me voyais reflété en elles. De leur côté, elles me regardaient, voyaient les cendres qui recouvraient ma face, et malgré toute leur intelligence et leur assurance, elles finissaient aussi par se voir reflétées en moi et se croire pires qu'elles n'étaient. Il ne faut pas que cela t'arrive, je t'en prie. »</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">J'aurais aimé ajouter que c'était ce qui s'était passé avec Esther. Et je l'ai compris seulement quand je me suis rappelé les changements dans son regard. J'absorbais toujours sa lumière, cette énergie qui me rendait heureux, sûr de moi, capable d'aller de l'avant. Elle me regardait, se sentait laide, diminuée, parce qu'à mesure que les années passaient, ma carrière - cette carrière qu'elle avait tant aidée à devenir réalité - faisait passer notre relations au second plan. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ainsi, pour la revoir, j'avais besoin que mon visage soit propre que le sien. Avant de la rencontrer, je devais me rencontrer. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Extraits de Paul Coelho « Le Zahir »</span>KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-37630304765518897342013-10-09T01:12:00.002+08:002013-10-09T01:21:35.782+08:00comme si je suis destiné de voir ces mots aujourd'hui<div>
1.</div>
<div>
« La semaine dernière, je suis allée voir un ami qui vit seul à la montagne, près de la frontière française ; quelqu'un qui adore les plaisirs de la vie et a souvent affirmé que la vraie sagesse consistait justement à profiter de chaque instant. </div>
<div>
« Dès le début, mon mari n'a pas aimé l'idée ; il savait qui était cet ami, que son passe-temps favori était de chasser les oiseaux et de séduire les femmes. Mais j'avais besoin de lui parler, je vivais un moment de crise dans lequel lui seul pouvait m'aider. Mon mari a suggéré un psychologue, un voyage, nous avons discuté, nous nous sommes disputés, mais malgré toutes ces pressions à la maison, je suis partie. Mon ami est venu me chercher à l'aéroport, nous avons parlé tout l'après-midi, nous avons dîné, bu, parlé encore un peu, et je suis allée me coucher. Quand je me suis réveillée, le lendemain, nous avons fait une promenade dans la région, et il m'a raccompagnée à l'aéroport. </div>
<div>
« À peine étais-je rentrée à la maison que les questions ont commencé. Était-il seul ? Oui. Aucune maîtresse avec lui? Non. Vous avez bu? Nous avons bu. Pourquoi ne veux-tu pas en parler ? Mais j'en parle ! Vous étiez seuls dans une maison qui donne sur les montagnes, un cadre romantique, non ? En effet. Et pourtant il ne s'est rien passé d'autre qu'une conversation ? Il ne s'est rien passé. Et tu penses que je vais croire ça ? Pourquoi ne le croirais-tu pas? Parce que cela va à l'encontre de la nature humaine - si un homme et une femme sont ensemble, boivent ensemble, partagent leur intimité, il finissent au lit!</div>
<div>
« Je suis d'accord avec mon mari. Cela va à l'encontre de ce que l'on nous a enseigné. Il ne croira jamais l'histoire que je lui ai racontée, qui est pourtant la pure vérité. Dès lors, notre vie est devenue un petit enfer. Cela passera, mais c'est une souffrance inutile, une souffrance causée par ce que l'on nous a raconté : un homme et une femme qui ont de l'admiration l'un à l'autre, quand les circonstances le permettent, finissent par coucher ensemble.»</div>
<div>
Applaudissements. Cigarettes qui s'allument. Bruites de bouteilles et de verres. </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
2.</div>
<div>
« Je suis le mari de la femme qui vient de raconter l'histoire, a déclaré un homme qui devait avoir au moins vingt ans de plus que la jeune et jolie blonde. Tout ce qu'elle a dit est exact, mais il y a quelque chose qu'elle ne sait pas et que je n'ai pas eu le courage de lui expliquer. Je vais le faire maintenant. </div>
<div>
« Quand elle est partie pour la montagne, je n'ai pas dormi de la nuit, et je me suis mis à imaginer - dans tous les détails - ce qui était en train de se passer. Elle arrive, le feu est allumé dans le cheminée, elle retire son manteau, elle retire son pull-over, elle ne porte pas de soutien-gorge sous son T-shirt léger. Il peut voir clairement le contour des seins. </div>
<div>
« Elle feint de ne pas deviner son regard. Elle dit qu'elle va jusqu'à la cuisine chercher une autre bouteille de champagne. Elle porte un jean très étroit, elle marche lentement, et même sans se retourner, elle sait qu'il la regarde des pieds à la tête. Elle revient, ils discutent de choses vraiment intimes et cela leur donne une sensation de complicité. </div>
<div>
« Ils épuisent le sujet qui l'a amenée là. Le téléphone mobile sonne - c'est moi, je veux savoir si tout va bien. Elle s'approche de lui, place le téléphone sur son oreille, ils écoutent tous les deux ce que je dis, en faisant attention car je sais qu'il est trop tard pour exercer la moindre pression ; mieux vaut feindre de ne pas m’inquiéter, lui suggérer de profiter de son séjour à la montagne, parce que le lendemain elle doit revenir à Paris, s'occuper des enfants, faire des courses pour la maison. </div>
<div>
« Je raccroche, sachant qu'il a écouté la conversation. Ils étaient tous les deux sur des sofas séparés, maintenant ils sont assis très près l'un de l'autre. </div>
<div>
« À ce moment-là, j'ai cessé de penser à ce qui se passait à la montagne. Je me suis levé, je suis allé jusqu'à la chambre de mes enfants, puis jusqu'à la fenêtre, j'ai regardé Paris, et savez-vous ce que j'ai constaté ? Que cette pensée m'avait excité. Énormément excité. L'idée que ma femme pouvait être, à ce moment-là, en train d'embrasser un homme, de faire l'amour avec lui...</div>
<div>
« Je me suis senti terriblement mal. Comment cela pouvait-il m'exciter ? Le lendemain, j'ai parlé avec deux amis. Évidement, je ne me suis pas pris comme exemple, mais je leur ai demandé si, à un moment de leurs vies, ils avaient trouvé érotique de surprendre, dans une fête, le regard d'un autre homme sur le décolleté de leur femme. Ils ont tous les deux éludé la question, parce que c'est un tabou. Mais ils ont dit l'un et l'autre qu'ils trouvaient formidable de savoir que leur femme était désirée par un autre homme : ils ne sont pas allés au-delà. Serait-ce un fantasme secret, caché dans le coeur de tous les hommes? Je ne sais pas. Nous avons passé une semaine d'enfer parce que je ne comprends pas ce que j'ai ressenti. Et comme je ne comprends pas, je la rends coupable de provoquer chez moi quelque chose qui déséquilibre mon univers. »</div>
<div>
Cette fois, beaucoup de cigarettes se sont allumées, mais il n'y a pas eu d'applaudissements. Comme si le thème restait tabou, même dans cet endroit. </div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
3. </div>
<div>
« Je vous demande pardon de ne pas être aussi direct que les deux personnes qui m'ont précédé, mais j'ai quelque chose à dire. Aujourd'hui je suis allé dans une gare et j'ai découvert que la distance qui sépare les rails est de 143,5 centimètres, ou 4 pieds et 8,5 pouces. Pourquoi cette dimension absurde ? J'ai demandé à ma petite amie d'en chercher la raison , et voici le résultat :</div>
<div>
« Parce qu'au début, quand on a construit les premiers wagons de chemin de fer, on a utilisé les mêmes outils que ceux dont on se servait pour la construction des voitures.</div>
<div>
« Pourquoi cette distance entre les roues des voitures ? Parce que les anciennes routes avaient été faites pour cette dimension, et que les voitures n'auraient pas pu circuler autrement. </div>
<div>
« Qui a décidé que les routes devaient être faites à cette dimension ? Et là nous voilà revenues dans un passé très lointain : les Romains, premiers grands constructeurs de routes, en ont décidé ainsi. Pour quelle raison ? Les chars de guerre étaient conduits par deux cheveux ; et quand on met côte à côte les animaux de la race dont ils se servaient à l'époque, ils occupent 143,5 centimètres.</div>
<div>
« Ainsi, la distance entre les rails que j'ai vus aujourd'hui, utilisés par notre très moderne train à grande vitesse, a été déterminée par les Romains. </div>
<div>
« Cela a tout à voir avec la mariage et avec les deux histoires que nous venons d'entendre. À un moment donné, quelqu'un est présenté et a dit : "Quand deux personnes se marient, elles doivent demeurer figées pour le restant de leur vie. Vous marcherez l'un à côté de l'autre comme deux rails, respectent exactement ce modèle. Si parfois l'un a besoin de s'éloigner ou de se rapprocher un peu, cela va à l'encontre des règles. Les règles disent : "Soyez raisonnables, pensez à l'avenir, aux enfants. Vous ne pouvez plus bouger, vous devez être comme les rails : il y a entre eux la même distance dans la gare de départ, au milieu du chemin, ou dans la gare de destination. Ne laissez pas l'amour changer, ni grandir au début, ni s'affaiblir au milieu - ce serait extrêmement risqué.' Par conséquent, passé l'enthousiasme des premières années, conservez la même distance, la même solidité, la même fonctionnalité. Vous servez à ce que le train de la survie de l'espace passe et se dirige vers le futur : vos enfants ne seront heureux que si vous restez, comme vous l'avez toujours été, à 143,5 centimètres de distance l'un à l'autre. Si vous n'êtes pas contents de quelque chose qui ne change jamais, pensez à eux, aux enfants que vous avez mis au monde. </div>
<div>
« "Pensez aux voisins. Montrez que vous êtes heureux, faites un barbecue le dimanche, regardez la télévision, venez en aide à la communauté. Pensez à la société : comportez-vous de manière que tout le monde sache qu'il n'y a pas de conflits entre vous. Ne tournez pas la tête, quelqu'un pourrait nous regarder, et ce serait une tentation, cela pourrait signifier divorce, crises et dépression.</div>
<div>
« Souriez sur les photos. Mettez les photos dans la salon, pour que tout le monde les voie. Tondez le gazon, faites du sport - surtout faites du sport, pour pouvoir rester figés dans le temps. Quand le sport ne suffira plus, passez à la chirurgie esthétique. Mais n'oubliez jamais : un jour, ces règles ont été établies et vous devez les respecter. Qui a établi ces règles ? Peu importe, ne posez jamais ce genre de question, car elles resteront valables à tout jamais, même si vous n'êtes pas d'accord. »</div>
<div>
Je me suis assis. Quelque applaudissements enthousiastes, un peur d’indifférence, et moi ne sachant pas si j'étais allé trop loin.<br />
<br />
Extraits de Paul Coelho « Le Zahir »</div>
KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-57006661366449247442013-06-29T00:53:00.001+08:002013-07-04T02:29:20.255+08:00Place Names In Original<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
</div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
</div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0Ytcg-XRQT2ohsIBrwpwYMRo8VTJeor1weW2uPDQ6vkQXzv6VhTjypUE8PyX4P2vj5fyl7hCg_RWf8VsTP15TKzM2Y6RNcWWbi7r4tFk5-5Qfa3VWrd-OngAP4KiM4Ma_9eW3hg/s826/130630_02.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="370" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0Ytcg-XRQT2ohsIBrwpwYMRo8VTJeor1weW2uPDQ6vkQXzv6VhTjypUE8PyX4P2vj5fyl7hCg_RWf8VsTP15TKzM2Y6RNcWWbi7r4tFk5-5Qfa3VWrd-OngAP4KiM4Ma_9eW3hg/s640/130630_02.png" width="640" /></a></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<br />
Everyday we pronounce place names out of our mouth. But what those place names actually mean? Here are some major Kowloon place names "translated" into English. "Translation" entre guillemets because it is no translating word to word. For a place name to bear a meaning, it is sometimes inevitable to look into the history of the place.... [Okay when we talk about history we fall asleep] So here it is - be it for for amusement, for discovery, for the love of the place we live.<br />
<br />
Beta 130630KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-71992769038798847212013-01-21T02:07:00.001+08:002013-01-21T02:07:07.805+08:00Tian An Men 天安門<iframe allowfullscreen="allowfullscreen" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/kqvq3c7isyg?rel=0" width="420"></iframe>
<br />
<table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="border-collapse: collapse; width: 566px;">
<colgroup><col style="mso-width-alt: 12192; mso-width-source: userset; width: 400pt;" width="400"></col>
<col style="mso-width-alt: 10432; mso-width-source: userset; width: 400pt;" width="400"></col>
</colgroup><tbody>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt; width: 229pt;" width="400">Au grand
cirque de pierres, sous le soleil de juin</td>
<td style="width: 196pt;" width="261">廣場千尺延 六月日高照</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Des hommes, assis par terre,
ont bravé le destin</td>
<td>好漢席地坐 頑勇抗厄運</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">C'était pourtant hier et c'est
déjà si loin</td>
<td>昨日事已千日遙</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;"></td>
<td></td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Je m'en souviens</td>
<td>思憶當年</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Un printemps comme les autres
que celui de Pékin</td>
<td>北京春日一如舊</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">A qui est-ce la faute si on
n'en dit plus rien ?</td>
<td>今眾若寒蟬 彼我是誰過?</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">C'était pourtant hier, qu'en
ferons-nous demain ?</td>
<td>嘆昨日已然,明日卻奈何?</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Qu'en ferons-nous demain ?</td>
<td>明日卻奈何?</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;"></td>
<td></td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">A force de subir les coups</td>
<td>子彈紛飛血滿路</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Y a des cris que l'on n'entend
plus</td>
<td>幾許呼號不再聞</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Des voix qui n'ont plus
d'autres issues</td>
<td>悠悠眾聲無路訴</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Que de maudire sans mot dire</td>
<td>恨怨盡付沈默中</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">A force de haïr les fous</td>
<td>怒髮衝冠胸懷恨</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Y a des hommes qui lèvent
leurs chaînes</td>
<td>壯士挺起破枷鎖</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Mourir peut-être, mais debout</td>
<td>無懼生死置度外</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">A Tien An Men</td>
<td>勇毅永照天安門</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;"></td>
<td></td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Une génération muselée,
mutilée</td>
<td>革命無聲誤眾生</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">De sa révolution qu'on n'a pas
écoutée</td>
<td>蹂躪復又禁議論</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">C'était pourtant hier, c'est
déjà oublié</td>
<td>昨日憾事縱或忘</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Mais ce n'est rien</td>
<td>人心世道長記取</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Si le corps est vaincu, brûle
toujours la flamme</td>
<td>身可殺惟火不滅</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Que rien n'éteindra plus à
l'écueil de son âme</td>
<td>英魂長存不可摧</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">C'est encore aujourd'hui et ce
sera demain</td>
<td>今日劫未了 明日又將至</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Et ce sera demain</td>
<td>明日又將至</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;"></td>
<td></td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">A force de subir les coups</td>
<td>子彈紛飛血滿路</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Y a des hommes qui brisent
leurs chaînes</td>
<td>壯士挺起破枷鎖</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">Mourir peut-être, mais debout</td>
<td>無懼生死置度外</td>
</tr>
<tr height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">
<td class="xl63" height="20" style="height: 15.0pt;">A Tien An Men</td>
<td>勇毅永照天安門</td>
</tr>
</tbody></table>
KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-11740985356668784202013-01-07T01:35:00.000+08:002013-01-07T09:17:07.425+08:00Parti de rien 重新出發<br />
<iframe allowfullscreen="allowfullscreen" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/tIi1DMtswrY" width="420"></iframe>
<table border="0" style="width: 600px;">
<tbody>
<tr>
<td>Parti de rien le destin m’a donné ma chance</td>
<td>重新出發 命運放咗個機會響我前面</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>A moi de la saisir et de prendre une longueur d’avance</td>
<td>我把握到個機會又再向前行多一步</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Dorénavant je taf pour accomplir mon rêve</td>
<td>呢一刻開始 努力為求達到夢想</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’ai cru en mon étoile même si la lueur était brève</td>
<td>幸運星會守護住我 雖然佢宜家唔算好光</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Parti de rien le destin m’a donné ma chance</td>
<td>重新出發 命運放咗個機會響我前面</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>A moi de la saisir et de prendre une longueur d’avance</td>
<td>我把握到個機會又再向前行多一步</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Dorénavant je taf pour accomplir mon rêve</td>
<td>呢一刻開始 努力為求達到夢想</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’ai cru en mon étoile même si la lueur était brève</td>
<td>幸運星會守護住我 雖然佢宜家唔算好光</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td> </td>
<td> </td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Parti de rien j’ai commencé l’rap à 17 pige</td>
<td>重新出發 十七歲我開始唱Rap</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’trouve des jeux d’mots faciles</td>
<td>玩弄文字我覺得容易</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>A l’époque j’suis un peu dyslexique</td>
<td>以為自己唔太識認字</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Certains supportent, d’autre sous-estimes</td>
<td>有人支持我 又有人睇低我</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Un peu plus tard ceux qui critiquaient écoutent et se prennent tous des gifles</td>
<td>後尾批評嘅人又覺得好聽真正係自打嘴巴</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Que des free styles de rue en p’tite équipe</td>
<td>一班人街頭玩下freestyle</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Certains grands du quartier ont réussi et vendent des milliers de disques</td>
<td>有幾個Rap得好又出咗名仲賣到幾千隻碟</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’aime cette musique les choses qu’elle revendique</td>
<td>我鍾意呢種音樂 更鍾意佢有所追求</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’ai pas l’intention devenir une star, pour moi c’est juste un kiff</td>
<td>做明星唔係我想既目標 玩音樂只為尋下開心</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td> </td>
<td> </td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’écoute IAM, FF et la Chronique, Venin</td>
<td>聽開 IAM, FF, la Chronique, Venin</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Le 3ème Oeil, le Carré Rouge, les Psy 4 de la Rime</td>
<td>Le 3ème Oeil, le Carré Rouge, les Psy 4 de la Rime</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Quelque têtes m’encourage ça fait plaisir</td>
<td>有人鼓勵 我當然好歡喜</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Le rap m’a vu grandir, j’ai eu une opportunité à saisir</td>
<td>Rap左幾年有左經驗有個機會響我前面</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Quelques concerts dans des salles presque vides</td>
<td>去到台上 一排排空凳響我前面</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Chaque micro ouvert j’me dis nike sa race il faut que j’fasse le beat</td>
<td>每次開騷 我唔理係黑人白人 最緊要係打好個beat</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’ai continué à rapper, phaser, taffer, gratter l’papier toute les soirées afin d’laisser mon nom gravé sans m’égarer</td>
<td>我一路rap歌寫歌練歌晚晚寫寫寫寫誓要你地個個記得我個朵</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td> </td>
<td> </td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Même quand t’as beaucoup de talent pour s’en sortir c’est la galère</td>
<td>你或者識好多揾食技能 我就覺得你真係揾苦黎辛</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’ai fais ça par amour pas pour croquer dans la galette</td>
<td>我唱歌皆因我鍾意唱歌 唔似你地錢要賺得多</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Très vite l’école ne m’intéresse plus</td>
<td>讀得兩年書我已經無咩興趣返學</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>En cours je gamberge à des métaphores qui peuvent enrichir mes mesures</td>
<td>淨係鍾意研究唔同既修辭手法豐富我嘅詞彙</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’ai quand même eu un BEP et un Bac STT</td>
<td>考完會考再過埋高考</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’ai aussi fais des missions d’intérim en BTP</td>
<td>響工程界仲打過幾份散工</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>A la maison les fins de mois sont difficiles</td>
<td>講到屋企 月尾確係好難過</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Ma seule raison c’est un pour la famille, deux pour la rime</td>
<td>屋企始終係最重要 玩音樂只係其次</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>A chaque ligne j’représente pour les miens quoi qu’il arrive</td>
<td>每句詞都係講我經歷過既事</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’ai beaucoup à apprendre, certaines personnes me sollicitent</td>
<td>我仲有好多野要學 好幾個人指導過我</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Quand il se passe rien j’comprends vite que c’est pas facile</td>
<td>無工開既時候 生活即刻變得困難</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’me bouge le cul, j’prends l’train en fraude pour des plans sur Paris</td>
<td>坐霸王車去巴黎 開始我嘅大計</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Toujours la dalle, j’hésite pas à me déplacer</td>
<td>食都食唔飽 無辦法下唯有搬走</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Avec Abdé, Processus verbal c’est démarqué</td>
<td>識到 Abdé, Processus Verbal 又再唱歌</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Les potes apprécient c’est l’essentiel</td>
<td>朋友既欣賞 係最緊要</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Parce que ce que je raconte c’est notre quotidien sans mise en scène</td>
<td>皆因我唱嘅就係無加鹽加醋既日常生活</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td> </td>
<td> </td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Le plaisir c’est transformé en soif de réussir</td>
<td>唱歌既樂趣變成對成功既渴望</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Les salles vides commençaient à s’remplir</td>
<td>台下既空凳越來越多人坐低</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’m’investi à fond dans mon écriture, Y’a très peu d’ouverture</td>
<td>我全情投入寫歌詞 無乜機會要我上台</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Ma plume a un goût d’amertume c’est hyper dur</td>
<td>寫到歌詞都有陣苦味 真係好難捱</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Les années passent, le circuit underground moi je connais qu’ça</td>
<td>一年又過左 地下樂隊我依然玩緊</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’rêve de ballon d’or sur un banc d’CFA</td>
<td>似坐響預備組 發夢攞金球獎</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Une vision sale du goût d’lépoque</td>
<td>無謂嘅幻想係當年嘅時尚</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Avec un brise-glace près d’la f’nêtre j’vais pas attendre qu’ils m’ouvrent les portes</td>
<td>坐響窗邊我突然醒覺 點可以再等人開門比我</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’ai attendu après personne j’fais mes truc à fond</td>
<td>唔要再靠任何人 做野百分之百投入</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>J’récolte le fruit de ma passion sans préoccupation</td>
<td>全情投入既收穫我終於得到</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>L’horizon se rapproche j’y vais avec motivation</td>
<td>憑住我十足幹勁 地平線越來越近</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>En espérant que chaque prestation donne bonne impression</td>
<td>每次上台表演我都望比到好印象大家</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Y’a à peu près un an j’ai décroché une signature</td>
<td>差不多一年之前 終於有人拎我簽名</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Une nouvelle page c’est ainsi greffé à mon aventure</td>
<td>旅程終於打開左新嘅一頁</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Je ne sais pas de qoi s’ra fait demain</td>
<td>我唔知聽日會發生咩事</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td>Voilà pourquoi j’ai applé mon album « Parti de rien »</td>
<td>所以呢隻碟個名叫做 重新開始</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td> </td>
<td> </td>
</tr>
</tbody></table>
<br />KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-46861192672852438952012-12-31T23:41:00.001+08:002013-01-02T00:36:41.872+08:00一年容易又過去<div style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">
I return in my thoughts to those I had met then. What has become of them? If Diogenes is no longer alive, it may well be that his sons are fighting. And strong, stocky, courageous Farrusco? Even if he did survive, he would be too old now to be in the trenches. But I remember him saying that a son had just been born to him. So if I were to meet a young officer on the Angolan front these days, ask him his name, and hear that it's Farrusco, I would answer: Years ago, I rode in a jeep with someone who had the same last name. Yes, the young officer would concur, that was my father.</div>
<div style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">
<br /></div>
<div style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">
And tall, silent Commandante Ndozi? Ndozi is no longer alive. He was blown up by a mine. Monti was also blown up by a mine. Powerful, cheerful Batalha as well. In these wars, enemies see each other face-to-face less and less frequently. They perish as they walk, while everything around them is empty and quiet. Death comes at them covertly, lying in wait under some sand, beneath a stone, under a clump of blackthorn. The earth was once the source of life, a granary, something desirable. Now, in these parts, man regards the earth suspiciously, distrustfully, with fear and loathing. With happened to Oscar? Perhaps he survived, and has retired. I would so much like him to have a good and peaceful old age. And Gilberto? I don't know, I cannot say. Felix? I also don't know. People disappear without a trace, so completely and irretrievably, first from the world, and then from our memory. </div>
<div style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">
<br /></div>
<div style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">
And Dona Cartagina? I am almost afraid to think about it. What if she is no more? But this seems impossible. Without Dona Cartagina, I cannot imagine either Luanda, or Angola, or this whole war. That is why I am convinced that should you be Luanda, sooner or later you will meet a grey-haired old woman walking in the morning towards the Hotel Tivoli. She will be hurrying, because, just like every other day, a lot of cleaning awaits her. If you stop her and inquire, 'Excuse me, are you Dona Cartagina?' the woman will stop for a moment, look at you with surprise, and then politely answer, 'Yes, it is I.'</div>
<div style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">
<br /></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">And she will continue briskly on her way.</span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
<span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">---- </span><a href="http://edkoala1650.xanga.com/770786434/another-day-of-life---ryszard-kapuscinski/" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; outline: none !important; text-decoration: none;">Another Day of Life - Ryszard Kapuscinski</a></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3bCBzD9kR2g1uy0TU9QPyGgP4MGfJyLAmZYRak_tioAATOm545wO3EZ9Xbi3onVGE8cCtTVRf8vjHhVFrCTtEWBGjBnsQstAjwC3Int4iCVFMFMRot6467i5DatPXPwlUny2Apw/s1600/IMG_2891.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3bCBzD9kR2g1uy0TU9QPyGgP4MGfJyLAmZYRak_tioAATOm545wO3EZ9Xbi3onVGE8cCtTVRf8vjHhVFrCTtEWBGjBnsQstAjwC3Int4iCVFMFMRot6467i5DatPXPwlUny2Apw/s320/IMG_2891.jpg" width="277" /></a></div>
<br />KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-79767655021538336802012-12-15T15:05:00.003+08:002012-12-15T15:06:22.548+08:00A Corps Perdu寫在世界末日前:<br />
2012年學會最寶貴的一課是<br />
呢個世界無話無咗邊個唔得嘅<br />
世界的中心,原來都係自己<br />
最重要的,原來係要對得起自己<br />
然後每天就不會白過<br />
即使下星期就是末日<br />
也沒有甚麼好後悔的<br />
在丟失我的法文之前<br />
為中法音樂交流出點力吧<br />
<br />
<iframe allowfullscreen="allowfullscreen" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/TzaLljwQhfQ?rel=0" width="420"></iframe>
<br />
Puisque des filets nous retiennent 天羅地網逃不出<br />
Puisque nos raisons nous enchaînent 理智情由掙不脫<br />
Que rien ne brille sous nos remparts 戰線上不再見閃光<br />
Et puisqu'on n'atteint pas le ciel 天空沒太遠觸不到<br />
A moins de s'y brûler les ailes 翅膀燒掉才飛不起<br />
Et suivre les routes où l'on s'égare 沿迷失的路走下去<br />
Comme on dresse un étendard 像旗幟升永不回頭<br />
<br />
A corps perdu, ivre et sans fard 我專心一意 心醉神往<br />
Pour n'être plus le pantin d'un espoir 不再淪為希冀的玩偶<br />
Et si la vie n'est qu'une cause perdue 即使一生注定是場敗仗<br />
Mon âme est libre d'y avoir enfin cru 只要我相信 靈魂就得自由<br />
A corps perdu 我全心全意<br />
<br />
Puisque les destins sont les mêmes 你我命運他朝相同<br />
Que tous les chemins nous ramènent 但願前行都能走到<br />
A l'aube d'un nouveau départ 旅程啟航那個晨曦<br />
On n'apprend rien de nos erreurs 怎可永遠一錯再錯<br />
A moins de s'y brûler le coeur 燒掉了心才記不住<br />
Je suivrai les routes où l'on s'égare 沿著迷路我走下去<br />
Comme on dresse un étendard 像旗幟升永不回頭<br />
<br />
A corps perdu, ivre et sans fard 我全心全意 心醉神往<br />
Pour n'être plus le pantin d'un espoir 不再淪為希冀的玩偶<br />
Et si la vie n'est qu'une cause perdue 即使一生注定是場敗仗<br />
Mon âme est libre d'y avoir enfin cru 只要我相信 靈魂就得自由<br />
A corps perdu 我全心全意<br />
A corps perdu 我一心一意<br />
<br />
A corps perdu j'écrirai mon histoire 全心全意 我寫我的故事<br />
Je ne serai plus le pantin du hasard 不再淪為命運的玩偶<br />
Si toutes les vies sont des causes perdues 即使一生注定是場敗仗<br />
Les hommes meurent de n'avoir jamais cru 匆匆一生 只因從不相信<br />
De n'avoir pas vécu ivres et sans fard 只因從未活過 - 心醉神往<br />
Soldats vaincus pour une guerre sans victoire 輸掉一場沒有勝利的戰爭<br />
<br />
Et si ma vie n'est qu'une cause perdue 即使一生注定是場敗仗<br />
Je partirai libre d'y avoir au moins cru 最少我相信 就可活得自由<br />
A corps perdu 我一心一意<br />
A corps perdu... 全心全意<br />
<br />KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-76362654110568143492012-11-28T22:13:00.001+08:002012-11-28T22:13:37.395+08:00不想說明親愛的T,<br />
<br />
我想,我把我們的對話記錄在此,你應該不會反對的,大概你不會看我這個只有文字沒有圖片的博客,對你來說這太悶了。<br />
<br />
有一天你來電問我,你的一個朋友要去台北旅行,要我推介甚麼好玩的地方。這下子我開始頭疼了,先得了解一下你的朋友啊--Well 那個要去旅行的,原來是你的同事--那她性格喜好如何呢--普通正常的啦,我都不太清楚--那她比較喜歡觀光血併還是要看點地道的東西吶--我不曉得啊,她就問我去台北玩大概要個多少天有啥東西玩--<br />
啊啊啊啊啊!那還不簡單嘛!給她買一本旅遊書不就行嗎?上百個景點讓你挑哩!可旅行不是追景點啊,每天追趕預設定的行程表的不叫旅行,只從旅遊書裡找景點吃喝玩樂的填滿行程也不叫旅行啊!<br />
唉!其實每個人旅行想要去的地方都不一樣,我之所欲亦非汝之所求耶。去巴黎你愛逛香榭麗舍我愛遊地下骷髏場,去巴賽羅那我每晚看音樂噴泉你去魯營看球星練波,去開羅你去騎駱駝我搭地鐵到尾站行平民區,去杜拜你去卡里法登高我去舊城飲奶茶,我又如何介紹好地方與你的好同事呢? 天下間你又找到幾多個同你志趣相投的好旅伴呢?<br />
<br />
越說越遠了,說到尾,去旅行還是一個人好,計劃旅行也是親力親為好。<br />
<br />
Cheers。<br />
KEKEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25719098.post-27532865281088079222012-01-09T17:59:00.000+08:002012-09-16T21:06:38.004+08:00行萬里路常言道讀萬卷書不如行萬里路,但,萬里路要走到哪裡?<br />
<br />
繼上回獨走高流灣之後,開始迷上一個人行山(兒童勿仿)。且看上回感想:<br />
<br />
身處四野無人之山頭,接連走了一個小時亦未見行人,身邊只有蟬鳴蟲叫踏草聲風吹葦草動,天地蒼茫之感如獨處旺角街頭人堆中。且前恐行錯路後恐無船搭要摸黑折返,一念於此無限風光跌落山堪稱死得其所正好了結三千煩惱,又念天大地大余渺小之軀所載之情關愛禍紅塵夢亦不過爾爾,縱然當初辛苦追逐何苦死鑽牛角尖?<br />
<br />
此後數次獨行,不論遠足或踏車,只求一種感覺:當身處臨難之際,心神自必集中,忘卻一切雜念,否則或遇溺墮崖,或粉身碎骨。看官或許會問:何需冒性命之虞?答曰:余若可安坐家中,望天花而忘其憂,何以稱之為憂?<br />
<br />
而隨時日遠去,心神逐漸平復,是日踏足馬屎洲只為逃離蝸居。略閱地圖,得知小島東西岸各有小徑,惟於北岸需綑邊而行。區區半公里不足掛齒,便貿然起行。東北岸一段灘闊石矮極其易走,轉西北岸後灘岸被淹且怪石林立,施展美猴王功夫踏岩跳石尚可應付,離岸五十米處有四五扁舟,船上釣魚郎想必以余為樂。惟汝等之樂非余之樂耶!遠足凡十載有餘,余未嘗落入如斯境地,亂石盡處只見紅樹群挺立,只得拉著樹枝貼水而行,又嘗向山上覓路,只見眾樹橫生,枝葉交織,上走不足十步即被逼折返岸邊,闖關三四次仍不得去路。至某處水淹過紅樹樹根,前無去路,旁無僻徑,只得折返。回頭一望,蓋因海水猛漲,來時所踏之石群已所餘無幾。至此余在水中央,有如身處馬爾代夫某個下一秒將遭沒頂之島嶼,又有如荒島劫後餘生但獨欠排球乙個,身上且有水無糧無電筒無大褸,正是今夜不知怎麼過... 慌惶片刻,即有船家經過,大叫截停,方便之極,相信於彌敦道截的士之速度亦有所不及!目睹余之困境,船上乘客稱奇中不忘訕笑,船家更苛索六十大洋,肉隨砧板上只好就範,綑邊之旅失敗告終。<br />
<br />
經此一役,發覺我委實盲目地過分有信心,而且遇困難不會輕言放棄,幾乎令自己身處萬劫不復之地。但,一旦發現前無去路,即馬上放棄。這一天簡直是我一年生活的縮影!<br />
<br />
怎樣才算走完萬里路?我想,走到自己的心裡就夠了。<br />
<br />
<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://a2.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/404372_10150567543091064_760876063_10764355_939384575_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="206" src="http://a2.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/404372_10150567543091064_760876063_10764355_939384575_n.jpg" width="640" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">攝於亂石堆旁</span></td></tr>
</tbody></table>KEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02129296032954399781noreply@blogger.com4